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so my last post was stupid...i have absolutely no reason to say anything other than good about my family...especially my parents...on numerous occasions i have made some pretty dumb decisions that have totally changed my life and in some way or another, screwed up theirs. And on more than one of those, sure there was yelling and punishment but they would still try and help me as much as they could...even after they kicked me out they have helped...and it may be too late but let me be the first to say that the last thing that i deserved was their help...i have to have the most loving parents that God could ever put on the earth and i wish that there was a way i could show how sincere i am about that. All i have done is messed up, and im so far away from making them proud and still they helped and loved and still i just threw it in there face...if there is one piece of advice i can give anyone its to appreciate your parents more than anything...because you really dont know how much they love you and how much they will put up with. so mom, dad, if you are reading...please know that i have nothing but apologies for you guys...i am so sorry. i miss you guys so much...im jealous of everyone around me who talk to their parents all the time and see them all the time...i miss your company, your comfort, everything. and the worse part of all of it is that its all my fault...if you would please...call or email all the family members or something and just tell them that i could not be more sorry for letting them all down...tell them that i love them too and i miss them also...especially grandma and grandpa burkiett..even if you just email this journal that i would...and to you guys...not even all the apologies in the world could help me express how sorry i am to you guys. i dont know what else to say except that i love you so much and miss you more than i have ever missed anyone.
love
joe
love
joe