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[melon187]

omg i am having some major problems here lol just relized that i really dont have any good qualities and that anyone i see on a daily bassis should like run away from me.and that if ur a girl that just isnt my friend u should go kill yourself cause your cause me shit. The past 11 days ive drank 7 times yea im fuckin kool arent i.so yea thats kinda like an alcohol problem. and as a result of drinking ive been doing some dumb shit like hooking up with people wich isnt helping me find what im looking for at al cause how am i supposed to find someone i like if i keep this shit up im a fucking drunkin loser hoe.And then like when i do like someone i sit here and get mest around with to like the point where i just wanna cry. it seems either way i go i lose all i know is i gotta get away from the alcohol and from like anything that isnt a seriouse relationship i gotta get myself together and clean up a lot
i hurt so much though i wish she would just understand that what she dose kills so bad lol i just cant do this this is terrible.im screwed.i think i love her.lol this agian wow i think im repeating myself lol this is pathetic