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Boo senior year. It seems that everyone here has found me to be an excellent student and worthy of some praise up until this year, when I actually need people to, you know, write recommendations, act as references, HELP ME GET A FUTURE! I don't understand how, after having taken 17 classes in one department in 4 years, I can't manage to get more than one qualified person to agree to write me a recommendation. Clearly, this is a sign I should not go to grad school in this subject, or any really (which, to be honest, I had decided a long time ago, but found this to be a nice option since finding a job is not happening). Really, it's not even the fact that I want to go/don't want to go, whatever -- it's the fact that after 4 years here, a place which I thought I did fairly well at, at least academically, no one who could help me to something else seems to think so. I didn't come to Bryn Mawr, go 150,000 dollars into debt (instead of going to state school and making money to be there), and work my ass off for four years to graduate no better off than I could have been the other way. It's just really frustrating hearing no so many damned times. I hit job rejection number 60 today, and honestly, at this point, I feel like giving up and going home. I know my parents are OK with me being there, but I don't see any other choice right now, since I have no money and I have no other place to be.
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