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[melolagnia]

I am in an insane mood.
I dont know why
It seems like everyone is depressed
NOt so much me
but everyone else
Ive been watching people a lot lately and
they say a lot more when theyre not talking to you
which i find interesting.
and slightly disturbing
in a good way

anyhow, i dont have much more to offer on that one. i hope it gets better.
i feel a little sad.
but im not going to complain about it.
its time to listen more than talk to everone.
i learn more

rugby has proven itself to be much much fun
the girls are cool as shit and the game is beyond kick ass
the only problem is that its becoming a part of my life...
which would not be a problem
but i think all of my friends are really annoyed by it.
i mean, i totally understand. but its what i do every day of the week.
so its really hard for me to not talk about it and be excited about it.
i think Ash is especially annoyed with it.
shes been really supportive
being there and helping me get there and all of that
i just think she doesnt ever want to hear about it
actully i could bet on it
but whatever.

im worried about my art.
i need to spend more time.
i need motivation that i cant find.
and i will be ok

food would be good
im poor. arent we all?
it sucks

and im trying to figure out what im going to do next year
if i stay in Gvegas, i want to get an apartment
but if i move to Italia, i think i should stay in the dorms for the time im here.
but i need a roomie.
its cool cause i kind of get first dibs on rooming, and if i suggested a person that i wanted to room with, they would probably get in too.
i just dont know who
maybe ill do random and take my chances.
i would like to have one that i could chill with though.
that would be nice

this is stressful
i have to decide by this weekend

procrastination, beautiful

the story of my life.

beautiful
intense
harsh
numb

-jazzC