just ranting
So its always a big circle. I'll have something crazy or special happen one day and im like oh man cant wait to tell my bestest friend nugget,and then im like oh wait nevermind I don't have him anymore. Then i'll get sad and think oh can't talk to her cause i don't wanna be annoying, and then can't talk to her cause she will prolly never understand, and can't talk to him because he won't either so im like man i wish i had HIM to go to and make everything better cause thats just who i have always had. The past few years that's it...him. All day everyday 3 or 4 years now. And now i don't. And i don't have a person...why can't I not have a heart? i think i'd feel better..hah