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I often wonder how my life will turn out at a particular moment If I was still still rooted steadfastedly in the lord. It's not that I have never thought of returning, but the way my life runs now makes me afraid that I will lose everything if I return, and
I'm not ready for that.
When I see my fellow maincomm still being so active with her religious life, I will wonder why I can't be like her.
It's not like I have completely given up either, but now when I try to talk to him I'm my head I feel so awkward, I drifted too far off already, the intimate relationship we had when I first entered TP Is gone, and sometimes I really miss it. The lonely feeling is back, and I feel really lost.
I'm not ready for that.
When I see my fellow maincomm still being so active with her religious life, I will wonder why I can't be like her.
It's not like I have completely given up either, but now when I try to talk to him I'm my head I feel so awkward, I drifted too far off already, the intimate relationship we had when I first entered TP Is gone, and sometimes I really miss it. The lonely feeling is back, and I feel really lost.