Endless Reflections
Wow, I have written some goofy stuff in here. :) Honest for the time, I am certain.
I'm thinking about... a canvas is a forum on which an artist expresses his essence. And I am thinking that some of an artist's energy goes into his work. And that makes me think about the dude that did my tattoo. He was a freaky ass dude. I don't know... maybe he had ADD. I guess that he had a messed up life (because he told me pretty much all of it). It was just like there was no filter. I didn't use the tools of speaking up to ask for someone else. That's really what I should have done. But then when I think that everything happens for a reason, I think there must be some reason for my having him do the tattoo. I mean, I clearly requested Art and got someone else... which I should have objected to at that time. But then, the stuff he was 'releasing' or talking about while he was doing my tattoo were things like all of the trouble that he got into while he was growing up. He talked about burning a house to the ground, stealing bicycles and selling them on a daily basis, etc. He talked about trying to do things better for his son (which, in his mind meant buying him the clothes that he wants). I guess that I can kind of "feel" the guy... like crying... or screaming... pissed off and tormented. So focused on how to get around with such huge weight on his shoulders.... which is where I got my tat. The owl is reminding me to see all angles. Maybe I wont say anything to Art.... everyone says I should after the dude was so rude to me... very insulting. But he did a good job, he's a good artist. Maybe the owl work will give him the ability to see more. Maybe I should go back to him anyway... because (unless he screws up the tat), he can't hurt me... he can't take me anywhere that I don't already know how to go. :) But if I do go back to him, I think I will ask him to be quiet and allow me to be quiet for the sake of the work... going to my 'happy place'. And maybe the energy of the work will also impact him. It is contrary to what everyone tells me but I think that I will return to him.
I'm thinking about... a canvas is a forum on which an artist expresses his essence. And I am thinking that some of an artist's energy goes into his work. And that makes me think about the dude that did my tattoo. He was a freaky ass dude. I don't know... maybe he had ADD. I guess that he had a messed up life (because he told me pretty much all of it). It was just like there was no filter. I didn't use the tools of speaking up to ask for someone else. That's really what I should have done. But then when I think that everything happens for a reason, I think there must be some reason for my having him do the tattoo. I mean, I clearly requested Art and got someone else... which I should have objected to at that time. But then, the stuff he was 'releasing' or talking about while he was doing my tattoo were things like all of the trouble that he got into while he was growing up. He talked about burning a house to the ground, stealing bicycles and selling them on a daily basis, etc. He talked about trying to do things better for his son (which, in his mind meant buying him the clothes that he wants). I guess that I can kind of "feel" the guy... like crying... or screaming... pissed off and tormented. So focused on how to get around with such huge weight on his shoulders.... which is where I got my tat. The owl is reminding me to see all angles. Maybe I wont say anything to Art.... everyone says I should after the dude was so rude to me... very insulting. But he did a good job, he's a good artist. Maybe the owl work will give him the ability to see more. Maybe I should go back to him anyway... because (unless he screws up the tat), he can't hurt me... he can't take me anywhere that I don't already know how to go. :) But if I do go back to him, I think I will ask him to be quiet and allow me to be quiet for the sake of the work... going to my 'happy place'. And maybe the energy of the work will also impact him. It is contrary to what everyone tells me but I think that I will return to him.