Almost Complete Zen.
... hmm...
I haven't been on in a long time, but let me reassure you, my life is just not that interesting. :)
I've been studying a LOT, it's really all that I do, but I know that it will pay off so I don't feel quite as grumpy about the whole not-having-a-life-thing...
And besides, I think I'm finally becoming the woman that I will be very happy being for the rest of my life. I work hard, and it's really paying off. And even though I haven't been to church in a while, I feel as if my relationship with God is getting better everyday. For once I'm not upset when I realize I'm turning into my mother, because now I'm mature enough to understand how beautiful, compassionate, sophisticated, and intelligent she really is.
It's nice to sit down and evaluate my life each day and be able to think, "Hey, Mel... you're getting somewhere."
Right now I'm really trying to focus on my research papers and exams (and not screwing up next week when I have to interview my first psychiatric patient). I am even thinking about helping a professor with their research, just to get my name out there... maybe some independent research awaits in my future? :) That would be a dream come true.
Even though I was really stressed and freaked out at the beginning of the school year, right now I am so content. I feel strong, but not invinsible.... sexy without fear of being objectified... loved without the strain of confining emotional-boundaries.
Yes, I am at peace. Almost complete Zen. ^^
But in the near future:
^^ He he.
I haven't been on in a long time, but let me reassure you, my life is just not that interesting. :)
I've been studying a LOT, it's really all that I do, but I know that it will pay off so I don't feel quite as grumpy about the whole not-having-a-life-thing...
And besides, I think I'm finally becoming the woman that I will be very happy being for the rest of my life. I work hard, and it's really paying off. And even though I haven't been to church in a while, I feel as if my relationship with God is getting better everyday. For once I'm not upset when I realize I'm turning into my mother, because now I'm mature enough to understand how beautiful, compassionate, sophisticated, and intelligent she really is.
It's nice to sit down and evaluate my life each day and be able to think, "Hey, Mel... you're getting somewhere."
Right now I'm really trying to focus on my research papers and exams (and not screwing up next week when I have to interview my first psychiatric patient). I am even thinking about helping a professor with their research, just to get my name out there... maybe some independent research awaits in my future? :) That would be a dream come true.
Even though I was really stressed and freaked out at the beginning of the school year, right now I am so content. I feel strong, but not invinsible.... sexy without fear of being objectified... loved without the strain of confining emotional-boundaries.
Yes, I am at peace. Almost complete Zen. ^^
But in the near future:
^^ He he.