psst psst psst...
Steve is one sick fucker. We're watching a documentary about the joke "The Aristocrats" and I think I'm going to vomit. Not that it's not funny, because it is, but wow...ewwwwww!!!!!!!!
Now that it's out there and spreading like mad cow disease...yes, I am having a baby. Don't know the sex yet or anything, but the due date is somewhere around late September/early October. Apparently there are some problems though. My pap came back irregular. The doctor said not to worry too much, there are no STDs, but they want to do a uterus scraping because they think it may be cervical cancer. What the fuck! Glad I'm STD free, but this seems to be a much bigger problem at hand. They don't know if they can do the scraping because I'm pregnant, but they may be able to cartarize the cells of my cervix without disrupting the baby. Wanna talk about being scared shitless. So, I've been freaking out for a few days and Monday I find out what steps we're going to start taking. Lloyd is being amazingly supportive and is willing to pretty much do whatever he has to do. His fear isn't losing the baby as much as it is losing me, which freaks me out because I don't want to be sick, or lose the baby. I was told I couldn't even get pregnant and he was with Sylvia for ten years without having any kids...its miraculous that we're even given this chance. The doctor thought I was around 5 weeks at the time of the test, but for some reason my blood is only producing hormones for being 2-3 weeks along at the time, therefore, we really don't even know how far along I am. Morning sickness has kicked in and the smell of italian food...lasgagna, spaghetti, pizza...all makes me puke. Fun stuff. Oh yeah, I may be put on bedrest because apparently Ihave a tilted cervix and too much time on my feet can cause my cervix to rip my uterus. Oh it just gets funner.
On a better note, I've been playing Sid Meijer's 'Pirates' and loving it!!! LOTR: Return of the King...sucks. Nothing really going on other than hanging with Steve and/or playing video games.
Look out of any window
any morning, any evening, any day
Maybe the sun is shining
birds are winging or
rain is falling from a heavy sky -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
this is all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago
Walk out of any doorway
feel your way, feel your way
like the day before
Maybe you'll find direction
around some corner
where it's been waiting to meet you -
What do you want me to do,
to watch for you while you're sleeping?
Well please don't be surprised
when you find me dreaming too
Look into any eyes
you find by you, you can see
clear through to another day
I know it's been seen before
through other eyes on other days
while going home -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
It's all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago
Walk into splintered sunlight
Inch your way through dead dreams
to another land
Maybe you're tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do
to do for you to see you through
A a box of rain will ease the pain
and love will see you through
Just a box of rain -
wind and water -
Believe it if you need it,
if you don't just pass it on
Sun and shower -
Wind and rain -
in and out the window
like a moth before a flame
It's just a box of rain
I don't know who put it there
Believe it if you need it
or leave it if you dare
But it's just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
Such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there
--Grateful Dead
Now that it's out there and spreading like mad cow disease...yes, I am having a baby. Don't know the sex yet or anything, but the due date is somewhere around late September/early October. Apparently there are some problems though. My pap came back irregular. The doctor said not to worry too much, there are no STDs, but they want to do a uterus scraping because they think it may be cervical cancer. What the fuck! Glad I'm STD free, but this seems to be a much bigger problem at hand. They don't know if they can do the scraping because I'm pregnant, but they may be able to cartarize the cells of my cervix without disrupting the baby. Wanna talk about being scared shitless. So, I've been freaking out for a few days and Monday I find out what steps we're going to start taking. Lloyd is being amazingly supportive and is willing to pretty much do whatever he has to do. His fear isn't losing the baby as much as it is losing me, which freaks me out because I don't want to be sick, or lose the baby. I was told I couldn't even get pregnant and he was with Sylvia for ten years without having any kids...its miraculous that we're even given this chance. The doctor thought I was around 5 weeks at the time of the test, but for some reason my blood is only producing hormones for being 2-3 weeks along at the time, therefore, we really don't even know how far along I am. Morning sickness has kicked in and the smell of italian food...lasgagna, spaghetti, pizza...all makes me puke. Fun stuff. Oh yeah, I may be put on bedrest because apparently Ihave a tilted cervix and too much time on my feet can cause my cervix to rip my uterus. Oh it just gets funner.
On a better note, I've been playing Sid Meijer's 'Pirates' and loving it!!! LOTR: Return of the King...sucks. Nothing really going on other than hanging with Steve and/or playing video games.
Look out of any window
any morning, any evening, any day
Maybe the sun is shining
birds are winging or
rain is falling from a heavy sky -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
this is all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago
Walk out of any doorway
feel your way, feel your way
like the day before
Maybe you'll find direction
around some corner
where it's been waiting to meet you -
What do you want me to do,
to watch for you while you're sleeping?
Well please don't be surprised
when you find me dreaming too
Look into any eyes
you find by you, you can see
clear through to another day
I know it's been seen before
through other eyes on other days
while going home -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
It's all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago
Walk into splintered sunlight
Inch your way through dead dreams
to another land
Maybe you're tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do
to do for you to see you through
A a box of rain will ease the pain
and love will see you through
Just a box of rain -
wind and water -
Believe it if you need it,
if you don't just pass it on
Sun and shower -
Wind and rain -
in and out the window
like a moth before a flame
It's just a box of rain
I don't know who put it there
Believe it if you need it
or leave it if you dare
But it's just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
Such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there
--Grateful Dead