Something Crazy?
So my whole life I've always been the logical one, thinking things out before I do them etc. etc. etc. But tonight....I did something kind of crazy and if it works out...It might be one of the craziest things I've done..yes, I have no life...
The last two months have been filled with heartache for me, I lost my friend Mike to suicide, and only a few weeks later I lost my friend 'Boo' to a freak car accident. These two guys were like my big brothers, I love these guys so much, the pain and grief that ran through my mind and still does. I don't sleep, I barely eat...I just feel like I'm going insane, so much hurt and anger inside of me, but I don't have the time to grieve cause I have to work everyday to support us...
So if that's not bad enough, I got laid off from my one job this week, cutting my pay in half, and now if I don't find a new job, my sister and I will be forced to move back to CA to sleep on my friend's couch until we can get on our feet. Things are just full of stress, and it's totally wrecking my body...
Tonight I had a breakdown, and between my tears I told my sister "I just want to get away for a week, to grieve...to not worry about anything!", somehow we got on the subject of WWE...
WWE is coming to Bakersfield on Sunday, and we hadn't originally planned on going, but after talking about it...I'm thinking it might be what I need. Get me and my sister out of the area, away from everyone and everything, and to a place where my mind will be so distracted for those two hours, maybe my mind can actually rest.
I know it's stupid and crazy, but honesty besides my sister WWE has been the only thing to keep me sane throughout this time, but now with my delivery job at night time, I don't get to see it...I don't get that two hours away from my life...so maybe this is just what we need...
We found some tickets on Ebay, we MIGHT be getting, and if we do...we're gonna go for it...We're gonna drive the 5 hour trip each way, and you watch.. it will be one of the best, crazy things me and my sister ever did...cause who knows...maybe this what I need? Or am I just crazy?
The last two months have been filled with heartache for me, I lost my friend Mike to suicide, and only a few weeks later I lost my friend 'Boo' to a freak car accident. These two guys were like my big brothers, I love these guys so much, the pain and grief that ran through my mind and still does. I don't sleep, I barely eat...I just feel like I'm going insane, so much hurt and anger inside of me, but I don't have the time to grieve cause I have to work everyday to support us...
So if that's not bad enough, I got laid off from my one job this week, cutting my pay in half, and now if I don't find a new job, my sister and I will be forced to move back to CA to sleep on my friend's couch until we can get on our feet. Things are just full of stress, and it's totally wrecking my body...
Tonight I had a breakdown, and between my tears I told my sister "I just want to get away for a week, to grieve...to not worry about anything!", somehow we got on the subject of WWE...
WWE is coming to Bakersfield on Sunday, and we hadn't originally planned on going, but after talking about it...I'm thinking it might be what I need. Get me and my sister out of the area, away from everyone and everything, and to a place where my mind will be so distracted for those two hours, maybe my mind can actually rest.
I know it's stupid and crazy, but honesty besides my sister WWE has been the only thing to keep me sane throughout this time, but now with my delivery job at night time, I don't get to see it...I don't get that two hours away from my life...so maybe this is just what we need...
We found some tickets on Ebay, we MIGHT be getting, and if we do...we're gonna go for it...We're gonna drive the 5 hour trip each way, and you watch.. it will be one of the best, crazy things me and my sister ever did...cause who knows...maybe this what I need? Or am I just crazy?