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today was a really lame day. so i wake up and im thinkin oh shit today is going to be really tight. im going to go have lunch with daniel, and its just gunna be a great day. well we dont have lunch, and we just chill, cause he leaves it up to me to figure out something to do which everyone always freaking does. and then he blocks me! and i dont even understand why, i mean was i that rude, i thought i wasnt that big of a bitch, but whatever its all good.. and then im just chillin and ryan comes home. my brother, and he starts yelling at me, and talking mad shit.. oh wow im still heated about the whole situation, i totally understand what he is trying to say , but he has no idea what its like to be in my shoes.. im not trying for people to feel sorry for me, but you try being homeless and having no where to go, and living in a god damn hotel for 4 months, its mass hard.. and then to rise above that, err.. i start babysitting tomorrow, so thats cool... nothing really exciting has happened lately.. and its starting to bug me..people are really fucked up thats all i have to say, the only people i adore in my life right now are two people, cause they actually give a fuck of how i feel.. and thats jillian and josh.. they are really sweet and they dont think of only themselves.. and they dont tell me how i should act they just except who i am.. oh well i will live, its just im really pissed off, and i really havent been that upset in a long while..... funny how things turn out, when you expect things to go so smooth they just bite you in the ass.. i mean am i really that cold of a person? maybe i am..
LAGUNA BEACH AT 10 HOLLER