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[mellyheartsu]

this rainy week has left me uninspired and unmotivated in any way. I can't find a reason to roll out of bed at 3 in the afternoon and it makes me feel crappy. a waste of a summer thus far. not to mention all of this me-time has left me alone with my thoughts, which is actually incredibly scary. i'm losing respect for lj again, but i'll keep mine just as long as it doesn't become the hotbed for drama. I'd rather no one read then everyone read to keep up on the latest drama. Sadly, it's people like that that keep reality TV in style. bleh. Anyway, i have so many goals this summer, and i can't find a way to even begin until it's sunny, which is sad.. and makes me think that i should basically forget schools in new york and chicago and just go to san marcus like i'm supposed to. yeah.. i'll stop there. thank God for Azure Ray and a mother who works at home next to my bedroom and doesn't stop yelling all day. I'd rather be in school.

You could go anywhere anytime
and find someone
But how will you know if he's kind?

The sun is out
But happiness
Only reminds you
Of the people you hurt
Mistakes that you made
When you were down

And where are you now?
You're sweeping up these sorry streets
And i knew somehow when you looked up and over me
That you could look up these words
But you still won't understand
They mean nothing to you
So write them in the sand
And watch the water wash them away

You could sit on your front porch
And watch the wasps dive down
You could go out every night
And force cheap beer down
You could go all day
And not make a sound