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so, ever feel like every time something seems like it'll be ok for once, it doesn't work out?
Yeah. Every time. I always try, and I'm like, "this time it will all be perfect." Then something goes wrong and people are upset. All I want is for it to be good, for it to be happy. That's all I want. And it never works. I always do something dumb, that I don't know is dumb at the time, and it ends up a disaster. I'm a fucking walking disaster sometimes...and that sometimes is all the times it counts. All I want is for it to work! That's all I want! And it never does.
Then my mommy comes to pick me up and I end up sobbing the whole way home, because I can't do anything to fix it except make desperate crying apologies.
I must be unlucky. Like, if you have me around, you'll always get yelled at or I'll cause a family disturbance. *sigh*
I just want him to be happy.
Yeah. Every time. I always try, and I'm like, "this time it will all be perfect." Then something goes wrong and people are upset. All I want is for it to be good, for it to be happy. That's all I want. And it never works. I always do something dumb, that I don't know is dumb at the time, and it ends up a disaster. I'm a fucking walking disaster sometimes...and that sometimes is all the times it counts. All I want is for it to work! That's all I want! And it never does.
Then my mommy comes to pick me up and I end up sobbing the whole way home, because I can't do anything to fix it except make desperate crying apologies.
I must be unlucky. Like, if you have me around, you'll always get yelled at or I'll cause a family disturbance. *sigh*
I just want him to be happy.