i won't think twice to shove that straight down sancho's throat
i hate the suburbs and i hate houses. they really scare me. i'm in connecticut at my aunt's.. all my family here, which is very small, (well, due to family problems... i don't see a lot of my family here but the family that i do see... is very small) is so different from my family in israel. first of all, my family in israel is HUGE. like, i'll go to a party and all the people there will be my cousins and tell me stories about when i was little and i'll have no idea who they are. they are so warm, loving and open. they're so alive and when i come here, it's like the total opposite. they're a bunch of depressed suburban people. well, not everyone.. but my uncle seems so depressed and my cousins are just so out of touch and boring. everything is so perfect and this and that.. i don't like that.. i like unorganization and loving and fun and spontaniety. i wish i was closer with my uncle and aunt. it's sorta sad and i don't like it. well, somethings will never change. my cousin asked me if i wanted to smoke up with him and his friend last night... i get way too paranoid now.. it's sad.