can somebody please fill me in...
When did I become such a girl?
No, seriously when did I suddenly let a guy consume so many of my thoughts, decisions and reasons for doing anything. because if I remember correctly, this used to be an unattainable idea for me. I either didn't fall hard enough, long enough or I just didn't fall at all.
Somebody just needs to slap me or something cause I want the old Kelsey back. I miss not caring, I don't want to care anymore but I don't know how. Is it really possible to just turn your emotions off, I mean do those people even exist cause I'd love to take a lesson or two and learn where the switch is.
Sometimes I ask myself what I'm waiting for. We're 8 months and counting now and I'm still idle. I mean every once in awhile I'll say to myself, its whatever I'll be over it in a month or two, and every couple of months I surprise myself because reluctantly I'm still in this, I'm still hanging in there.
Listen to Warning Sign by Coldplay. It's a pretty good song but there is this one very small part of the song that is so honest.
"When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.
And I'm tired "
right there. those 3 small words. and what I love especially about that part is that the orchestration of the instrumental is so truthful to the words. And I'm tired. I am so tired. just exhausted by all of this and it's really starting to get to me because I can't stop it. Am I doing something wrong here?
why is it so hard to just let go?
I guess it's all fun and games until you really start liking someone.
No, seriously when did I suddenly let a guy consume so many of my thoughts, decisions and reasons for doing anything. because if I remember correctly, this used to be an unattainable idea for me. I either didn't fall hard enough, long enough or I just didn't fall at all.
Somebody just needs to slap me or something cause I want the old Kelsey back. I miss not caring, I don't want to care anymore but I don't know how. Is it really possible to just turn your emotions off, I mean do those people even exist cause I'd love to take a lesson or two and learn where the switch is.
Sometimes I ask myself what I'm waiting for. We're 8 months and counting now and I'm still idle. I mean every once in awhile I'll say to myself, its whatever I'll be over it in a month or two, and every couple of months I surprise myself because reluctantly I'm still in this, I'm still hanging in there.
Listen to Warning Sign by Coldplay. It's a pretty good song but there is this one very small part of the song that is so honest.
"When the truth is,
I miss you.
Yeah the truth is,
That I miss you so.
And I'm tired "
right there. those 3 small words. and what I love especially about that part is that the orchestration of the instrumental is so truthful to the words. And I'm tired. I am so tired. just exhausted by all of this and it's really starting to get to me because I can't stop it. Am I doing something wrong here?
why is it so hard to just let go?
I guess it's all fun and games until you really start liking someone.