Dec 02, 2006 19:45
{As of mid-Nov.}
"Dear Sheena,
Hello!
My name is Kim, Hee-jung, a social worker in charge of post adoption services at E.S.W.S.
I have received your letter and your request of birth search from A.S.I.A. I have been searching for your birth mother, but I have yet to find out the birth mother. I am still in process of the search..."
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The sense of urgency about the search drifts to the back of my mind nowadays. -But- I wait everyday- even if it takes years I'll still wait everyday.
Even to hope for a response & even more a reunion is a dream. I wonder what their doing right this second. I wonder if my biological brother is serving his two years in the Korean army. I wonder if I have half-siblings. I wonder if maybe my birth parents ended up marrying each other- despite protest from Duk Im's- my birth mother's parents. If they had another child after me- another daughter- that would be amazing. It's so easy to let imagination take hold of me.
I think a common question for adoptees who search is: If you ever met your birth mother &/or birth family- what is the first thing you'd say or ask? Moreover, such a question is confounding. It's not uncommon for a child given up for adoption to be "relinquished" seconds after the birth. Therefore, the birth mother never once looks at her child- either forced or by choice. ~I think the first thing I'd ask: Is this the first time our eyes have met? Is this the first time we've looked into each other's eyes and seen our own?