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Feeling Time : So for a while now i have been getting closer and closer to Fredo Jayson and even Ty for that matter. They have become my boys. I love them all dearly. It just sucks for me that im so far from them. I dont get to hang out with them most of the time. Fredo and Jayson live so close that they could hang out whenever they want to. And they do. Steph and Ty hang out all the time with Lynn. So im the one left home alone hanging out with myself. I wish that i could change that some how. I want to move to the valley. Or at least have my own car and a good job so that i can go see them whenever i want to. Again i feel like the odd ball out. Now i know that its a feeling that im gonna have until i am completly my own person and not dependent on anyone. Unfortunatly i dont see that happening for a while. I wrote fredo a letter a couple weeks ago. Just cause i was bored. He said he would write me back. I dont believe him. He has written everyone else something. Even steph....huh....God how i wish that didnt bother me. Im scared to talk to him about whats going on in my head...im afraid he will critisize it....and prove im just being dramatic....thats why i keep everything inside....but its all good he does the same.