late night ramblings
So Casey is gone now. And I'd be a liar if I said I was okay with it. All I feel like doing when I'm alone is bawling my eyes out. Ugh. I hate how all these hormones have to keep hanging around and making me crazy. Going to bed by myself is the hardest. I always miss that the most. It's so crazy how you can miss having someone in bed with you who makes you feel like you're sleeping with a space heater, and snores like it's going out of style.
As for his mother being at the airport... ugh, stupid woman was an hour late getting there and just like I said she would she came in bawling and rambling about stupid shit. She got to see Casey for a whole five minutes. No lie. So pointless for her to have been there. Of course she was being all sweet to me. Telling me I was a good mommy and she planned on coming down once a month. I seriously just avoided making eye contact with her and having to deal with her. It was good that I didn't have to deal with her much, but seriously casey stressed the whole time we were there over where she was. Which pissed me off.
And now I'm sitting here, with my eyes super tired and hurting and I can't make myself go to sleep. I have a chiropractor's appt at 10 but I think I might just reschedule and sleep instead. Yeah, i think I will. So yeah.
I guess I"ll quit rambling. I just needed to get some of that out. I think maybe I can sleep now.
As for his mother being at the airport... ugh, stupid woman was an hour late getting there and just like I said she would she came in bawling and rambling about stupid shit. She got to see Casey for a whole five minutes. No lie. So pointless for her to have been there. Of course she was being all sweet to me. Telling me I was a good mommy and she planned on coming down once a month. I seriously just avoided making eye contact with her and having to deal with her. It was good that I didn't have to deal with her much, but seriously casey stressed the whole time we were there over where she was. Which pissed me off.
And now I'm sitting here, with my eyes super tired and hurting and I can't make myself go to sleep. I have a chiropractor's appt at 10 but I think I might just reschedule and sleep instead. Yeah, i think I will. So yeah.
I guess I"ll quit rambling. I just needed to get some of that out. I think maybe I can sleep now.