jeebus...
I need to vent.
I'm stressed out to the max. I'm tired allll the time. I need to get laid(it's been over a year---and even so... I only get it like once a year and it's really shitty each time). I am beginning to feel desperate. I've been saving myself for someone special but is it worth it? No, I'm not asking this b/c it's Valentine's Eve.. or whatever it's called. I just need to ask myself these things sometimes. Am I being THAT picky? grrrr.
I hae had Phillip on my mind a lot lately. I am beginning to hate him. I see him EVERY time I go to Mulligans. He doesnt speak to me, and he sits w/ my friends(therefore I feel wierd to even talk to them) grrr. GET OUTTA MY BAR! Normally this shit doesn't phase me, but he is. First loves don't die--its true. Guess I wasnt his first, b/c he just treats me like I would treat guys that meant nothing much to me. Fuckin' a. Maybe that's it! I think I may have solved it. see, that's why I need to write shit down. But still he sux.
Aaron Lasarge is in town from Afghanistan and I haven't gotten to hang out w/ him yet b/c of PHILLIP! grrrr!
Girls in school are annoying the pants off me. bitch bitch bitch is all I hear. I sit(stand actually) there silently and in deep thought about so many things... working diligently and when I'm not thinking I hear NOTHING but bitching! Even from the freakin' teachers! Of course, I'm stuck w/ a station right next to the teacher's offices.. bah. I think I'm gonna try moving stations tomorrow... if I ever fall asleep.
Thomas moved to NY, he's makin' it there. I'm so jealous. He got the degree I wanted, from the school I wanted, hes acting like I wanted, and now living my dream up in NY... like I wanted. I wish we couldve stayed together just so I could live in the shadows of my own dreams.seriously. I guess I really suck.
I'm not even proofing this... I think I may delete it tomorrow if it sux... I just needed to vent some shit boggling my mind.
I figured if I am going to tear everything I see up at the bar table(lables, napkins, coasters, cigg boxes, etc) then something was definitely bothering me. I dunno. not even my best of friends could cheer me up tonight, just one of those fucking moods.
MEH................................................
I'm stressed out to the max. I'm tired allll the time. I need to get laid(it's been over a year---and even so... I only get it like once a year and it's really shitty each time). I am beginning to feel desperate. I've been saving myself for someone special but is it worth it? No, I'm not asking this b/c it's Valentine's Eve.. or whatever it's called. I just need to ask myself these things sometimes. Am I being THAT picky? grrrr.
I hae had Phillip on my mind a lot lately. I am beginning to hate him. I see him EVERY time I go to Mulligans. He doesnt speak to me, and he sits w/ my friends(therefore I feel wierd to even talk to them) grrr. GET OUTTA MY BAR! Normally this shit doesn't phase me, but he is. First loves don't die--its true. Guess I wasnt his first, b/c he just treats me like I would treat guys that meant nothing much to me. Fuckin' a. Maybe that's it! I think I may have solved it. see, that's why I need to write shit down. But still he sux.
Aaron Lasarge is in town from Afghanistan and I haven't gotten to hang out w/ him yet b/c of PHILLIP! grrrr!
Girls in school are annoying the pants off me. bitch bitch bitch is all I hear. I sit(stand actually) there silently and in deep thought about so many things... working diligently and when I'm not thinking I hear NOTHING but bitching! Even from the freakin' teachers! Of course, I'm stuck w/ a station right next to the teacher's offices.. bah. I think I'm gonna try moving stations tomorrow... if I ever fall asleep.
Thomas moved to NY, he's makin' it there. I'm so jealous. He got the degree I wanted, from the school I wanted, hes acting like I wanted, and now living my dream up in NY... like I wanted. I wish we couldve stayed together just so I could live in the shadows of my own dreams.seriously. I guess I really suck.
I'm not even proofing this... I think I may delete it tomorrow if it sux... I just needed to vent some shit boggling my mind.
I figured if I am going to tear everything I see up at the bar table(lables, napkins, coasters, cigg boxes, etc) then something was definitely bothering me. I dunno. not even my best of friends could cheer me up tonight, just one of those fucking moods.
MEH................................................