Get me away from here I'm dying
Ok, so not that dramatic, but close. My family just left yesterday and then I found out that my sister is camping all week. There goes my entertainment while I'm home :P I already miss my cousin. It was hard saying goodbye again. Seems like we have just a few short hours together before I have to say bye again. It almost feels like saying bye to my uncle every time too. For a short period, I can feel his presence with us when we visit, so it's kind of like dealing with his death and the fact I'll never see him again every time they leave. Sigh..such is life.
I'm sitting, still in my pajamas, at almost 1pm on a Tuesday. What a life. Now I remember how depressed I was on unemployment before. What's my problem?? I hate working and feel depressed when I am, but I hate feeling useless and feel depressed when I'm not. Ack! Someone get me some Prozac! Just kidding. It's not that bad, but seriously, I need to find something that I at least marginally like doing. I haven't even been exercising and I actually do like doing that. Getting off my ass is so hard though! I only have 12 days (SHIT!) until the Nike Run Hit Wonder...my first 10k and i'm going to have a heart attack. Maybe I'll only do the 5k. I hate wussing out like that. JC will be so disappointed in me. Dammit. Dammit. Problem is, I have so little motivation to do anything. I don't want to get fat again, but the way things are going....
Things will be more fun on Thursday when Shawn gets here. He's taking the earlier train afterall. Said he couldn't justify an additional $8 for convenience (aka, not wanting to get up that early). I really really miss him. It's been a week since we've seen each other. I know, not THAT long, but I do miss him. And when you have nothing else to think about, missing someone takes over pretty easily. Maybe I'll go try on clothes somewhere--that'll motivate me to go exercise when my fat ass can't get into my size anymore :P
I'm sitting, still in my pajamas, at almost 1pm on a Tuesday. What a life. Now I remember how depressed I was on unemployment before. What's my problem?? I hate working and feel depressed when I am, but I hate feeling useless and feel depressed when I'm not. Ack! Someone get me some Prozac! Just kidding. It's not that bad, but seriously, I need to find something that I at least marginally like doing. I haven't even been exercising and I actually do like doing that. Getting off my ass is so hard though! I only have 12 days (SHIT!) until the Nike Run Hit Wonder...my first 10k and i'm going to have a heart attack. Maybe I'll only do the 5k. I hate wussing out like that. JC will be so disappointed in me. Dammit. Dammit. Problem is, I have so little motivation to do anything. I don't want to get fat again, but the way things are going....
Things will be more fun on Thursday when Shawn gets here. He's taking the earlier train afterall. Said he couldn't justify an additional $8 for convenience (aka, not wanting to get up that early). I really really miss him. It's been a week since we've seen each other. I know, not THAT long, but I do miss him. And when you have nothing else to think about, missing someone takes over pretty easily. Maybe I'll go try on clothes somewhere--that'll motivate me to go exercise when my fat ass can't get into my size anymore :P