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Have you ever had a dream that felt so real and although you've told yourself numerous times that there is no way it could have actually occured, due to the time and place, you can't help but feel vulnerable? They say that dreams are masks of our desires yet I don't believe that. The flip-side was that sometimes in dreams we emotionally get hurt...how can anyone desire that? Perhaps mentally we don't desire it but sometimes getting hurt is the only way to see what love blinds us from. Love is both the best and the worst thing we will ever experience in a life-time. We try to prepare ourselves yet nothing can save us from the emotional rollercoaster it takes us on. Even after a break-up the rollercoaster continues through grieving stages. We usually desire to be with that person again but that's not usually the ACTUAL case; usually we desire to go back to when they made us feel like nothing else mattered in the world...as long as you two were together everything would always be perfect...regardless of hardships and flaws. The downfall is that usually one person is stronger than the other for reasons unknown and so they can be dragged down. There will always be someone in the relationship who, by luck of the draw, has been through more. We don't ask to watch someone close go into rehab because it tore the family apart to have them here...especially when they would become extremely violent towards those weaker...and we don't ask to be raped at a young age and to not be able to tell anyone because of the other family member's drug problem...and we don't ask to be put into mentally abusive situations that make us feel like we are nothing. As soon as these little truths come out, though, we are seen in a different light...which makes us feel like a goddamn charity case...and then our desire is to go back in time to when no one knew any of this. It's really nothing but a lose-lose situation...