boxing day - a day to see what is around you.
Today was supposed to be simple.
Attended a friend's wedding nearby my place. The chinese dishes were mediocre and the ambience was terrible (to some that was normal, not terrible). Maybe the expectation was. too. high. Whatever, didn't enjoy much but luckily a good friend was there to accompany. After dinner, there was Thosai @ JP for supper. She didn't like how Thosai tasted 'cos she claimed that it has some strange flavour. The sauces were good but not good enough to cover the "strange flavour", to her.
Didn't really know why H left a msg just as the thought of leaving a msg for him, too. Coincidence? No idea. Prolly so? This feeling has been unexplanable, it felt relatively familiar yet like a "stranger" at the same time. Why? Was it 'cos it has been years since the last meet up? Was it 'cos there wasn't much understanding of this friend in the first place many years ago? Or could it be that her mentally didn't change but his did? They shared a couple of views and she felt taken aback and disappointed that this H guy she used to know had never portrayed that image to her.
As something was escalated into another incidentally, her mind was blank and time seemed to come to a standstill. She knows that she would never step into something that could never be progressed into a commitment. Instincts told her that this person who was very nice, encouraging and supportive character, has now changed into another person who doesn't allow you to see his heart and mind, anymore. It did not bother him if the friendship lasts, what matters was what he wanted from the friendship and what she could offer in the friendship. It was a simple deal to him, but not for the girl.
Should anyone ask if H was worth her to think about, her answer would be: no and never. It was a blessing in disguise.
to be continued...
till then, m.