2 dias until SAT's.... :(
so i decided to update, all by myself... no one telling me to go home and do it immediately!!
so i feel like such a girl right now, which i kno makes zero sense bc i dont normally feel like a boy or nething, but right now im just feeling really girly and i kinda have the urge to paint my room pink. i think that mostly i feel this way bc i "have" a really cute boy! i was talkin in physics and lunch and social studies over the past two days with just about everyone about boys and relationships and how things end up or work out or wutever... and i got to vent about some bad times and share some cute things, and talk about wut's good and wut's bad and blah blah blah... just girl talk, but it really made me realize how fuckin lucky i am, not that i didnt kno already, but i kinda had this misconception that i was the only person who always ended up with a bad relationship, and that everyone else was lucky... but that's clearly wrong bc everyone i talked to got the shitty end of the stick at least once, and when u find something good, u dont let go. also, i realized that i should just keep it to myself sometimes when i wanna talk about boys and good relationships bc some ppl that either *have no experience, *are in a bad situation, or *are ending a relationship, dont wanna hear it... and they'll give u the funniest looks! but im really happy and this is my journal, so imma type about it all i want.... cause im soooooooo happy right now! i kinda wanna burn a cd of loud, obnoxious, happy songs, chock full o' ashlee simpson, ryan cabrera, hanson, yellowcard, dashboard, and PA-Lenty of country... i really just wanna blast happy music and sing and dance and be annoying... hahaha. i ALSO wanna hear loud happy music bc of tennis, wedensday [yesterday] was our LAST DAY EVERRRRRRrrr. OMG it was sadder than i couldve ever imagined! i mean, ive seen it 3 times now, and it's always a shame to see the seniors go, but i never really cared THAT much. but when it's YOU leaving, omg!!! i was so upset, everyone kept yelling at me not to cry... bc once one starts, theres no stopping it. but i will miss it sooo much, all the girls were amazing, i really love everyone! even patella, who i def had my differences with wrote a really really cute note on my little poster, and that made me wanna cry most of all. and marina! ill miss her so much!! i kept making her lose the last point so that we would be stuck in deuce for a long time, so that it wouldnt end... but the other team was so bad that they couldnt even take points we were trying to give them, so it had to end... and both of us were lost when we realized THAT WAS IT. uhh... i dont like change. in any way.
-'s all i got for now. back to sat practice and cd burning.
so i feel like such a girl right now, which i kno makes zero sense bc i dont normally feel like a boy or nething, but right now im just feeling really girly and i kinda have the urge to paint my room pink. i think that mostly i feel this way bc i "have" a really cute boy! i was talkin in physics and lunch and social studies over the past two days with just about everyone about boys and relationships and how things end up or work out or wutever... and i got to vent about some bad times and share some cute things, and talk about wut's good and wut's bad and blah blah blah... just girl talk, but it really made me realize how fuckin lucky i am, not that i didnt kno already, but i kinda had this misconception that i was the only person who always ended up with a bad relationship, and that everyone else was lucky... but that's clearly wrong bc everyone i talked to got the shitty end of the stick at least once, and when u find something good, u dont let go. also, i realized that i should just keep it to myself sometimes when i wanna talk about boys and good relationships bc some ppl that either *have no experience, *are in a bad situation, or *are ending a relationship, dont wanna hear it... and they'll give u the funniest looks! but im really happy and this is my journal, so imma type about it all i want.... cause im soooooooo happy right now! i kinda wanna burn a cd of loud, obnoxious, happy songs, chock full o' ashlee simpson, ryan cabrera, hanson, yellowcard, dashboard, and PA-Lenty of country... i really just wanna blast happy music and sing and dance and be annoying... hahaha. i ALSO wanna hear loud happy music bc of tennis, wedensday [yesterday] was our LAST DAY EVERRRRRRrrr. OMG it was sadder than i couldve ever imagined! i mean, ive seen it 3 times now, and it's always a shame to see the seniors go, but i never really cared THAT much. but when it's YOU leaving, omg!!! i was so upset, everyone kept yelling at me not to cry... bc once one starts, theres no stopping it. but i will miss it sooo much, all the girls were amazing, i really love everyone! even patella, who i def had my differences with wrote a really really cute note on my little poster, and that made me wanna cry most of all. and marina! ill miss her so much!! i kept making her lose the last point so that we would be stuck in deuce for a long time, so that it wouldnt end... but the other team was so bad that they couldnt even take points we were trying to give them, so it had to end... and both of us were lost when we realized THAT WAS IT. uhh... i dont like change. in any way.
-'s all i got for now. back to sat practice and cd burning.