"Happy Hour" has asked me to stick around...
and I have infact accepted.
Now it's time I push myself & get everything back on track.
That's the hardest to accomplish so far...
this isnt about alcohol...
it's about cheering to life.
I keep cheering but days like today make me think Im just denying.
So life's got me running wild...having fun and loving every minute of everything I do no matter what it is.
If you want to talk about life, I'll take you out.
If you want to talk about love, it's been forgotten.
You tell me.
Right now, I wouldnt care to hear it.
Wait a minute, lets talk about "love"...
there is one, ONE person that I loooove to forgive...to talk to...to hold...to tell me to shut up...to leave me...to come back...to use me...to allow me to use him.
ONE.
Things have flipped so far upside down that I actually turned off all feelings, all cares, all worries, and all thoughts. I told my heart to look the other way cause it wasnt needed this time and I was sucessful. I was actually 100% heartless while laying in his arms...while waking up to his hugs before he left for work...heartless when he called me baby...numb to the texts that slipped in a cute word or two...the ONE person that could do no wrong but that's all they've ever done...I blocked him out. I'd leave his apartment and go to the grocery store. I didn't even have a story to tell.
since WHEN was that ONE person not worth talking about??? since when could I just walk away and continue on w/ my errands for the day???? When did I put him on the list of things to do!
I was proud to say I dont have feelings for anyone until I realized, I currently dont even have feelings for myself.
We all handle situations differently.
Life - grab a beer.
Love - tell a story.
Feelings - pinch yourself every now and then just to make sure it stings a bit.
Get things on track so the bills get paid, the grades make As, happiness isn't just denying, and so that ONE person continues tossing those crazy butterflies into your tummy.
Get things on track, and then raise the glass.
HERE'S TO LIFE !
Now it's time I push myself & get everything back on track.
That's the hardest to accomplish so far...
this isnt about alcohol...
it's about cheering to life.
I keep cheering but days like today make me think Im just denying.
So life's got me running wild...having fun and loving every minute of everything I do no matter what it is.
If you want to talk about life, I'll take you out.
If you want to talk about love, it's been forgotten.
You tell me.
Right now, I wouldnt care to hear it.
Wait a minute, lets talk about "love"...
there is one, ONE person that I loooove to forgive...to talk to...to hold...to tell me to shut up...to leave me...to come back...to use me...to allow me to use him.
ONE.
Things have flipped so far upside down that I actually turned off all feelings, all cares, all worries, and all thoughts. I told my heart to look the other way cause it wasnt needed this time and I was sucessful. I was actually 100% heartless while laying in his arms...while waking up to his hugs before he left for work...heartless when he called me baby...numb to the texts that slipped in a cute word or two...the ONE person that could do no wrong but that's all they've ever done...I blocked him out. I'd leave his apartment and go to the grocery store. I didn't even have a story to tell.
since WHEN was that ONE person not worth talking about??? since when could I just walk away and continue on w/ my errands for the day???? When did I put him on the list of things to do!
I was proud to say I dont have feelings for anyone until I realized, I currently dont even have feelings for myself.
We all handle situations differently.
Life - grab a beer.
Love - tell a story.
Feelings - pinch yourself every now and then just to make sure it stings a bit.
Get things on track so the bills get paid, the grades make As, happiness isn't just denying, and so that ONE person continues tossing those crazy butterflies into your tummy.
Get things on track, and then raise the glass.
HERE'S TO LIFE !