can i be your memory?
Sept. 11 2001<3
a lot of people have forgotten that thousands of americans died on this day 3 years ago. so many people lost someone close to them. someone they cared about & loved. i hope all who died rest in peace. <33
so school's messed up. i dont like it at all. dont see friends anymore & its just gonna be another year where friends drift apart.i started to think about everything after leaving clay's house yesterday. & this is what ive figured out.. most best friends of mine wont always be my best friends.
people judge people way too much & when they do it in front of me.. im just scared they do this behind my back about me & i say that & they're just like oh no your fine but i never know. they might seriously think im annoying or sumthing. i try to not let it get to me. b/c just like that gc song i know God can only judge me in the end. but it still does get to me..
& other things i thought about was people lie & ditch you no matter what you try to do or say.& they also get pissed off at you for no reason sometimes.. even when they've done the same thing to you over & over again..
but idk next time your about to say sumthing about someone just make sure you know them PERSONALLY first. i know alot of people that others talk shit about. & they dont even know them personally. & i do & without these people i dont know where i'd be. & i love them with all my heart.. >>
recently ive been feeling like i need a big change. an everything about me change.& so i want to do that.
jenn & i got gifts for clay at wally world. & went over clay's while he was with tyler & matt at the mall. me & jenn decided to give him a surprise party a couple days ago for his big 1-6. so ty helped us out on that & it was great. me & jenn got to clay's & went to a store with his mom to get party supplies.. his mom is really nice.
so when clay finally showed up with ty & matt.. me jenn chloe kristina & michelle jumped out & for about 10 minutes clay was just in awe. kept saying what F____ man what the F____ it was hilarious. & i just hope he was happy with the party b/c hes just a great person & my best friend at that! :) :) so we all just talked & played hide & go seek. joey showed up but then michelle left real early. :( & then after a bit chloe & kristina left too. but before they did that chloes mom danced with the boys. that was great. hahaha so me & jenn were alone with the four boys. & that was all good fun.
& they were totally in my last entry. they should feel special. shhhoooot. when i grow older & out of high school me & jenn better still be friends with them so we can have slumbers. haha but just b.c whenever i hang out with them it sux when we have to leave or they have to leave if you know what im saying. haha i love it so much. bff most defff. joey was tired most of the time but we woke him up. we finally met the famous matt clay always talks about. hes cool.. an exact clone of tyler & clay. they all act the same. & i remembered me & jenn & most friends of our friends talk & act the same too. hah lovely.
overall it was just such a great night. feels like its still summer. i wish. id like to go on a midnight walk just about now. but im scared some guy will snatch me & kill me. so yeah ill stay in. i kinda wish i had a boy at this time so we could go on a walk & look up at the stars.he'd protect me. that be nice. it'll come one day i hope.
so i wrote long. wondering if everyone actually read that shiznit. hahhh k i like this song so i put it in the journ. just kinda reminds me of tonight. but not really. haha
this may never start, we could
fall apart & id be your memory,
lost your sense of fear feelings
insincere,can I be your memory?
so get back to where we lasted,
just like I imagine, I could
never feel this way, So get back
back, back to the disaster My
heart's beating faster, Holding
on to feel the same <3
the first decoration jenn put up. aint it lovely?
thats matt holding clays cake
silly ty
it was pertty hot up in the room. ((all cuz of me you know.. haha jk jk)) jenn was cooling herself off.
i love chloe :D
glad michelle came :)
dunno what i was doing? im not trying to be sexy or nething!! haha
clays my bff
when i was taking a pic. ty got in it with his butt. hah
best friends forever<3 chloe was taking the pic. shes our bff too
brotherly love
joey was tired after a long day of marching band.
pimp
smile ty!
it was a tiring day yesterday for jenn & me. clay is lucky to have cool friends like us. :):)
best friends forever & ever & everrrrrrrrr<3<3
a lot of people have forgotten that thousands of americans died on this day 3 years ago. so many people lost someone close to them. someone they cared about & loved. i hope all who died rest in peace. <33
so school's messed up. i dont like it at all. dont see friends anymore & its just gonna be another year where friends drift apart.i started to think about everything after leaving clay's house yesterday. & this is what ive figured out.. most best friends of mine wont always be my best friends.
people judge people way too much & when they do it in front of me.. im just scared they do this behind my back about me & i say that & they're just like oh no your fine but i never know. they might seriously think im annoying or sumthing. i try to not let it get to me. b/c just like that gc song i know God can only judge me in the end. but it still does get to me..
& other things i thought about was people lie & ditch you no matter what you try to do or say.& they also get pissed off at you for no reason sometimes.. even when they've done the same thing to you over & over again..
but idk next time your about to say sumthing about someone just make sure you know them PERSONALLY first. i know alot of people that others talk shit about. & they dont even know them personally. & i do & without these people i dont know where i'd be. & i love them with all my heart.. >>
recently ive been feeling like i need a big change. an everything about me change.& so i want to do that.
jenn & i got gifts for clay at wally world. & went over clay's while he was with tyler & matt at the mall. me & jenn decided to give him a surprise party a couple days ago for his big 1-6. so ty helped us out on that & it was great. me & jenn got to clay's & went to a store with his mom to get party supplies.. his mom is really nice.
so when clay finally showed up with ty & matt.. me jenn chloe kristina & michelle jumped out & for about 10 minutes clay was just in awe. kept saying what F____ man what the F____ it was hilarious. & i just hope he was happy with the party b/c hes just a great person & my best friend at that! :) :) so we all just talked & played hide & go seek. joey showed up but then michelle left real early. :( & then after a bit chloe & kristina left too. but before they did that chloes mom danced with the boys. that was great. hahaha so me & jenn were alone with the four boys. & that was all good fun.
& they were totally in my last entry. they should feel special. shhhoooot. when i grow older & out of high school me & jenn better still be friends with them so we can have slumbers. haha but just b.c whenever i hang out with them it sux when we have to leave or they have to leave if you know what im saying. haha i love it so much. bff most defff. joey was tired most of the time but we woke him up. we finally met the famous matt clay always talks about. hes cool.. an exact clone of tyler & clay. they all act the same. & i remembered me & jenn & most friends of our friends talk & act the same too. hah lovely.
overall it was just such a great night. feels like its still summer. i wish. id like to go on a midnight walk just about now. but im scared some guy will snatch me & kill me. so yeah ill stay in. i kinda wish i had a boy at this time so we could go on a walk & look up at the stars.he'd protect me. that be nice. it'll come one day i hope.
so i wrote long. wondering if everyone actually read that shiznit. hahhh k i like this song so i put it in the journ. just kinda reminds me of tonight. but not really. haha
this may never start, we could
fall apart & id be your memory,
lost your sense of fear feelings
insincere,can I be your memory?
so get back to where we lasted,
just like I imagine, I could
never feel this way, So get back
back, back to the disaster My
heart's beating faster, Holding
on to feel the same <3
the first decoration jenn put up. aint it lovely?
thats matt holding clays cake
silly ty
it was pertty hot up in the room. ((all cuz of me you know.. haha jk jk)) jenn was cooling herself off.
i love chloe :D
glad michelle came :)
dunno what i was doing? im not trying to be sexy or nething!! haha
clays my bff
when i was taking a pic. ty got in it with his butt. hah
best friends forever<3 chloe was taking the pic. shes our bff too
brotherly love
joey was tired after a long day of marching band.
pimp
smile ty!
it was a tiring day yesterday for jenn & me. clay is lucky to have cool friends like us. :):)
best friends forever & ever & everrrrrrrrr<3<3