there are no words for this day.
this is the worst day of my life. so i thought my dad only had chest pains, right? no; it turns out that he has an infection around his heart. to a lesser extent, i can't apply for juilliard because i can't pay their application fee and i was denied membership ffrom a subbing team for whatever reason that they never specified.
i did everything they asked and i was still denied.
being an actor wasn't meant to be.
my father might just die at ANY. GIVEN. MOMENT.
and it's funny i'm even posting this right now because no one cares anyway.
EDIT 12/1/11: i take back the part about not being able to send my juilliard application. they waivered the fee! :DDDDD now to just do my best at the audition. i hope my dad can get through his heart problems. in the meantime, i'm gonna listen to arashi's new song to get me through it!
EDIT 01/15/2012: my dad has been recovering for the past few weeks. he's becoming healthier than he has been in years. i am so ridiculously proud of him. :')