Paul
I haven't talked to Paul in a while now, though I've been trying to call him like everyday. I started to get the hint, but I didnt give up. So Friday, I called and called and called, and finally, he answered the phone. And I wish he hadnt. I was half drunk and he was in a very disagreeable mood, which I only made worse. He told me he didn't know if he wanted to be my friend anymore. He's right, I don't think I would be my friend. I have been a really horrible friend to Paul, and I feel like shit about it. I am kind of drunk right now and I'm almost in tears about the whole thing. I understand though. I think I might be his Karlyn Wunder. And though none of you know who that is, if you did I'm sure you'd agree with me. So, I think I may just leave him alone. Its really hard thinking about not having Paul around ever again, but maybe its the best for him. I feel really bad about the whole thing, and realize I was a fair-weather friend, which is the exact type of thing I hate. God I'm an asshole.