whatchyou lookin' at foo?
so i'm just randomly pondering...as usual, lost in my own little world where i fall comatose to daydreams and questionings. current ponder involves the subject of "staring", particularly being the one stared at.
I'm self conscious to begin with, although the majority of the time i'm so oblivious, not a smart way to be, that i don't even notice if someone happens to be looking or not. I'm not referring to being watched as in a creepy or vain way, but I've recently noticed that now that I go out with my boyfriend...people look.
I mean not that it's that big of a deal, it's just made me curious, because as humans it's our nature to stare or look, but there's always different reasons for observation. I'm just kind of wondering why people seem to look more if you're a couple? I know there's several reasons, one being they're simply wondering IF we are dating, or are we related? Another being they're basically checking him out...something I just have to deal with cause mike is handsome. And one reason being that they're probably wondering if it's actually possible he's with me xD Ok I'll shut up. lol
I was out in the city with mike the other day, we hopped on the subway and sat down and right away I felt eyes on us...ha big surprise, after all it IS the subway. But it was this really pretty blonde, and i'd meet her eye and she'd just keep looking at us; it was sorta weird, but I don't know I got the vibe she was probably surprised he was with someone like me? lol I know i'm stupid, damn is my self esteem THAT bad? but there's always a voice in the back of my head that a guy who looks like he does, tall and slender, cute, would be with a girl of the same frame, basically someone exactly like the girl who kept staring at us.
meh i'm just rambling and i felt like typing out some dumb thoughts in livejournal, that es all.
I'm self conscious to begin with, although the majority of the time i'm so oblivious, not a smart way to be, that i don't even notice if someone happens to be looking or not. I'm not referring to being watched as in a creepy or vain way, but I've recently noticed that now that I go out with my boyfriend...people look.
I mean not that it's that big of a deal, it's just made me curious, because as humans it's our nature to stare or look, but there's always different reasons for observation. I'm just kind of wondering why people seem to look more if you're a couple? I know there's several reasons, one being they're simply wondering IF we are dating, or are we related? Another being they're basically checking him out...something I just have to deal with cause mike is handsome. And one reason being that they're probably wondering if it's actually possible he's with me xD Ok I'll shut up. lol
I was out in the city with mike the other day, we hopped on the subway and sat down and right away I felt eyes on us...ha big surprise, after all it IS the subway. But it was this really pretty blonde, and i'd meet her eye and she'd just keep looking at us; it was sorta weird, but I don't know I got the vibe she was probably surprised he was with someone like me? lol I know i'm stupid, damn is my self esteem THAT bad? but there's always a voice in the back of my head that a guy who looks like he does, tall and slender, cute, would be with a girl of the same frame, basically someone exactly like the girl who kept staring at us.
meh i'm just rambling and i felt like typing out some dumb thoughts in livejournal, that es all.