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I really don't care anymore. And, that totally sucks.
I've put lots of time and energy into getting this extra degree, but I'm ready to quit. Even if I get it, I know I'll feel like I'm not worthy of it. There are so many other people that I know who are really smart AND who enjoy this stuff. I don't.
I have an exam tomorrow in a statistics course. I failed the midterm even after studying like crazy for it. I'm not motivated to study for the one tomorrow. :-(
Bleh. At least, I've learned a few things about time to event analysis and about myself.
I'm ready to have a regular job again, only take classes for fun, have time to spend with Louis, time to do things around the house, time to see my family, time to take vacations or mini trips. I'm ready to be able to clean or watch tv without feeling guilty about it.
I'm seriously thinking about just dropping it all. It's funny, but I'm worried about people being disapointed in me. I'm not sure why I care, but I know my Mom thinks I should either get another master's or finish this degree. I know it's only two more years of pain, but it's MY pain and my life. I really want to start enjoying it.
I've put lots of time and energy into getting this extra degree, but I'm ready to quit. Even if I get it, I know I'll feel like I'm not worthy of it. There are so many other people that I know who are really smart AND who enjoy this stuff. I don't.
I have an exam tomorrow in a statistics course. I failed the midterm even after studying like crazy for it. I'm not motivated to study for the one tomorrow. :-(
Bleh. At least, I've learned a few things about time to event analysis and about myself.
I'm ready to have a regular job again, only take classes for fun, have time to spend with Louis, time to do things around the house, time to see my family, time to take vacations or mini trips. I'm ready to be able to clean or watch tv without feeling guilty about it.
I'm seriously thinking about just dropping it all. It's funny, but I'm worried about people being disapointed in me. I'm not sure why I care, but I know my Mom thinks I should either get another master's or finish this degree. I know it's only two more years of pain, but it's MY pain and my life. I really want to start enjoying it.