and the craziness continues...
well these past 2 days have been a complete disaster i`ve done so many things i now regret. well every time i`m with ashley i get hyper and crazy...were way to0 much alike. i dnt think we can be together unsupervised cuz we could deffinetly single handedly rip another black hole in this universe. anyways so yesterday was day 4 of her being @ my crib. we were bored so her cuz came to take us shopping @ la vente. i wasnt supposed 2 go but i did and got caught. then me and ash went 2 berniez house 2 get in the po0l when we weren`t supposed 2. i got caught. then @ night i snuck out and went 2 sunset with steven & raul. i deffinetly got caught. if i could re-live yesterday i wouldn`t have done any of it cuz it was totally not worth it. but i guess everything happens 4 a reason- and now i`m deffinetly never sneaking out again...@ least for a good while. i need 2 get my head in the right place. i`ve been way too out of control lately. but hey, @ least i can admit it. anyways so then sasha slept over and she got here @ almost 3 in the morning- but it was cuz we made a whole arroz con mango up about...well it was a disaster. then comes today. sasha left and we didnt really either of us get in trouble. good i dnt think i would have been able 2 handle it. so i was home all day trying 2 catch up on my sleep cuz i have slept a total of 11 hours in the 4 days ash was here. then @ night a HUGE episode happened between me and my mom. it made me realize what a bitch i`ve been 2 her lately and how i dnt appreciate everything she duz 4 me. and i`m not trying 2 b corny but she really dsnt deserve the way i`ve been treating her lately cuz sheez always basically been there 4 me whenever i want 2 do something and sheez basically raised me and my sister alone. i guess i needed everything that happened today to happen so i would be able to see that. and to tell u the truth...regret is not what i`m feeling. its more like appreciation that everything turned out okay. and ever since this episode i`ve been able 2 lo0k @ everything i do have. wow i`m blessed. well enough of the mushy shit. so now i`m home...its almost 4 in the morning and i`m not a bit tired...i wonder why. my mom wants 2 take me 2 the beach tomorrow. i was supposed 2 stay @ the Fountain Bleu this weekend but thats not guna work out. whatever @ least i can go during the day. so yea i`m on lockdown but its NOT gunna b very drastick. i just have 2 come clean about everything. i already confessed a whole bunch of shit tonight to my mom that i thought i would take 2 the grave with me. whatever i think we`re making slow progress. i just hope i can enjoy the rest of my summer. and i`m really lo0king forward to a few things, so i guess thats the motivation that keeps me going. i guess in a time when everything you think you had you suddenly loose, you have to remember that there is tomorrow and that people forgive and nothing is written in stone. and you should take advice from a quote i like to live by: "people lie, things go wrong, shit happens, but life goes on." - - comment!! meLissa ♥