what's wrong with me?
i can't be grateful to her. it's fucking impossible because i seem to find something, one little thing to set me off and then it's an explosion. rage and hatred come spewing from my mouth without a second thought. i can't stop it. she tries to do nice things for me when she knows i'm broke and i can't be a grateful person and say thank you. i just explode with rage because something she did or said. i don't know where this hatred for her comes from but it's there and i can't make it stop. i don't know why.