my mind is everywhere

[melissacorsair]

sleep deprivation is seriously driving me up a fucking wall. its 5:57AM right now. since i've been back at school, i've gotten maybe two full restful nights of sleep. with the horrible news i received a few days ago, and my attempts to process it, i should probably be thankful for those two nights although they are sparing. all i could think about

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[consonances]

i know how you feel about being around happy people and just feeling lonely throughout it. that's how i am. i'm really really sorry. you know i am but it hurts me too. obviously not as much as you (i, nor anyone else, could ever feel that) but it hurts because you're hurting and because i don't want to see her go. i can't imagine her not being there and i can't imagine you without her. i'm sorry if that's not helping. the good thing is i'm really happy that you're with spencer. i'm really glad that he is being so supportive and amazing to you. you deserve him and all the wonderful people you have met this year. please let me know the next time you're coming home and i'll try and come home too. it's things like this that make me sad that we're not in high school anymore because i just want to sit in either of our houses and talk. i miss you so much. please try and feel better. i'm here if you need to call or anything.

(also i dunno if you got my ims back last night. i saw your ims but i was trying to get my work done and i couldn't tell if you had signed off or were just on invisible when i imed you back. i want to know what the other melissa looks like.)