life
I feel like I have so much to say right now to the point where I could write an autobiography. Maybe it's because I've been working constantly for the past two days straight and haven't seen my friends since Saturday, who knows. But whatever the reason, I'm just going to type chaos for however long.
I know people talk about me, people I never even met before and they talk as if they've known me my entire life. Judgements passed on experiences are okay with me but when they're passed on what they force themselves to believe, that pisses me off. Learn to know me then tell me what you think but until then fuck yourself. How do you people sleep at night?
I've changed more in the past year that I ever will again. I used to depend on people so much and that was such a bad habit but it was the best habit to break and now it's broken and gone. My friends find that hard to believe and they think I'm slowly breaking down inside by not seeing Ryan. The distance between us does make me miss him alot, especially with the days that go by where I don't talk to him at all but there is no need to get upset over the situation at all, he's doing his job and he's doing a damn good job at what he does, I'm proud of him. I went into this knowing the circumstances and I'm here to stay, I'm not going anywhere. All this waiting is worth it, I know how happy we make eachother and I'd wait years for him. Being with him has changed my views on so many different levels and I am so happy to be able to call him my own.
As for school, COULD IT BE GOING BY ANY SLOWER? I got my graduation dress yesterday with my mom, it's a beautiful black summer dress. I just want to graduate. I want that day to come, it's going to be the happiest day of my life so far. I'm sick of being treated like a kid & I'm sick of making up all these detentions for things I don't even remember doing & I'm sick of teachers saying I'm not going to walk on graduation day. Next time I hear that I'm going to beat someone over the head with my time cards. I WILL raise hell to Shawsheen Tech. I want high school to be over and I want to start my life. I used to be scared but now I'm just ready.
i'm ready to just live my life, i have so many hopes and dreams and i know that someday everything will happen.
I know people talk about me, people I never even met before and they talk as if they've known me my entire life. Judgements passed on experiences are okay with me but when they're passed on what they force themselves to believe, that pisses me off. Learn to know me then tell me what you think but until then fuck yourself. How do you people sleep at night?
I've changed more in the past year that I ever will again. I used to depend on people so much and that was such a bad habit but it was the best habit to break and now it's broken and gone. My friends find that hard to believe and they think I'm slowly breaking down inside by not seeing Ryan. The distance between us does make me miss him alot, especially with the days that go by where I don't talk to him at all but there is no need to get upset over the situation at all, he's doing his job and he's doing a damn good job at what he does, I'm proud of him. I went into this knowing the circumstances and I'm here to stay, I'm not going anywhere. All this waiting is worth it, I know how happy we make eachother and I'd wait years for him. Being with him has changed my views on so many different levels and I am so happy to be able to call him my own.
As for school, COULD IT BE GOING BY ANY SLOWER? I got my graduation dress yesterday with my mom, it's a beautiful black summer dress. I just want to graduate. I want that day to come, it's going to be the happiest day of my life so far. I'm sick of being treated like a kid & I'm sick of making up all these detentions for things I don't even remember doing & I'm sick of teachers saying I'm not going to walk on graduation day. Next time I hear that I'm going to beat someone over the head with my time cards. I WILL raise hell to Shawsheen Tech. I want high school to be over and I want to start my life. I used to be scared but now I'm just ready.
i'm ready to just live my life, i have so many hopes and dreams and i know that someday everything will happen.