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Let's see if I can get this out and make it sound like I'm not whining...forgive if I am. Do you ever sit back and wonder if you were born the right person? I just feel so...alone and stuff lately. And I really have no reason to be. I have the greatest friends in the world. It's just..something is missing. I want to feel whole. I don't like to pretend to be happy when I'm not. What triggered this feeling? I..dont know honestly. Okay..moving on.
Michael really made my night last night. After talking all semester and junk..I never get any real signal from him whether or not he cares if I live or die. And I'm completely fine with that. I didnt even think of it. But last night..he came up and pushed the crowd and said "Melissa, I've been looking everywhere for you!" He gave me a huge hug and said.."I really am going to miss you next semester." That was just..wow. I know there are "Melissa and Michael" jokes to follow soon but I really dont care.
Phantom is coming out on Wednesday..I'm sooo excited. Katelinn and I are gonna go see it me thinks. April was gonna but she cant. Christmas is very very soon!! I can't believe it's already Christmas time..it doesnt feel like it. It feels like November or something. I'm not getting into the Christmas spirit this year...I mean, our tree is up but it's never lighted. We have dancing snowmen but we never turn them on. I think a lot of it has to do with the whole family feud dealio. Which I hate more and more every day. I know people have it worse than me and I'm really really thankful for what I have but......I just..I dunno.
Oh yeah, the concert was last night. It was rather boring and hooooooot cause of the dumb uniforms. Kristen fell going in "accidentally". No no no! It SO wasnt planned at all. I think I need a break. But then again I kinda dont want one. I'm going to miss Mr. Roberts' lame jokes and having a class with Michael, Katelinn, Christine, Rachel, Clay, Emily and Krista. I'm gonna miss the crazy labs like "if I hook electricity up to a pickle, I wonder what will happen?" I'm gonna miss being bugged and tickled. I'm gonna miss Mr. Medley's war stories and the pride he has for his country as well as his sweetness and courtiousness. I'm even gonna miss his boring lectures. I'm even gonna miss Profe and his Bush impressions and ticking me off. I'm gonna miss being able to kid around and cuss around a teacher. Then again, next semester is gonna be a new begining. A class with Daniel Lee and Amanda Clifton. A Mrs. Price class. A class with Jessica Golden. And of course band. Band will never change. I think when I graduate, I'll be so so sad..for one reason. No more band camps or performances or Saturday competitions. I have one more band camp. Gah. THAT is depressing. I have so many memories with so many awesome people and I dont think that I'll ever lose any of them. Many many laughs,as well as tears, shared within those walls. True friendships never die.
Michael really made my night last night. After talking all semester and junk..I never get any real signal from him whether or not he cares if I live or die. And I'm completely fine with that. I didnt even think of it. But last night..he came up and pushed the crowd and said "Melissa, I've been looking everywhere for you!" He gave me a huge hug and said.."I really am going to miss you next semester." That was just..wow. I know there are "Melissa and Michael" jokes to follow soon but I really dont care.
Phantom is coming out on Wednesday..I'm sooo excited. Katelinn and I are gonna go see it me thinks. April was gonna but she cant. Christmas is very very soon!! I can't believe it's already Christmas time..it doesnt feel like it. It feels like November or something. I'm not getting into the Christmas spirit this year...I mean, our tree is up but it's never lighted. We have dancing snowmen but we never turn them on. I think a lot of it has to do with the whole family feud dealio. Which I hate more and more every day. I know people have it worse than me and I'm really really thankful for what I have but......I just..I dunno.
Oh yeah, the concert was last night. It was rather boring and hooooooot cause of the dumb uniforms. Kristen fell going in "accidentally". No no no! It SO wasnt planned at all. I think I need a break. But then again I kinda dont want one. I'm going to miss Mr. Roberts' lame jokes and having a class with Michael, Katelinn, Christine, Rachel, Clay, Emily and Krista. I'm gonna miss the crazy labs like "if I hook electricity up to a pickle, I wonder what will happen?" I'm gonna miss being bugged and tickled. I'm gonna miss Mr. Medley's war stories and the pride he has for his country as well as his sweetness and courtiousness. I'm even gonna miss his boring lectures. I'm even gonna miss Profe and his Bush impressions and ticking me off. I'm gonna miss being able to kid around and cuss around a teacher. Then again, next semester is gonna be a new begining. A class with Daniel Lee and Amanda Clifton. A Mrs. Price class. A class with Jessica Golden. And of course band. Band will never change. I think when I graduate, I'll be so so sad..for one reason. No more band camps or performances or Saturday competitions. I have one more band camp. Gah. THAT is depressing. I have so many memories with so many awesome people and I dont think that I'll ever lose any of them. Many many laughs,as well as tears, shared within those walls. True friendships never die.