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ok i def fucked up my relationship up tonight. i was dating this kid Will.i busted him on some shit.. i wanted to see if he was going to be faithful and i fucked him up pretty good! it feels like im losing everyone now a days. i can never just find that one that wants to be with me and no one else. well he did...well thats what he said! but honsetly who can fucking trust guys these days?? i know i cant! i dont no what to do anymore. i was so looking foward to come down to florida next week but now im not! well i am to see family and friends. but i really wanted to see him! hopefully me and him can talk and work things out! im so afraid to be happy bc when i am happy everything goes wrong..well look what happen tonight...i was so happy and now im going back to being miserable all over again. when is this shit gonna end? =( there is nothing scarier then gettin what u want bc that is when you really have something to lose..well i had it and now i lost it. well i am going to go and cry myself to sleep!!
ill update later <3