Hair
Last night was the premiere (??) of Efe's play. you know they've been preparing "Hair" right? of course you do, even he deleted his journal.. anyway.
About the play, I just wanna say in one word that it ROCKED, I mean I saw school plays before but this was something so much more than that, Efe was awesome, so was Ömer (only two people I know), the dances and the lyrics, and I don't know, whole of it, you should just watch it.
And I met a whole bunch of Efe's friends, I knew Begüm, besides that, his friends from high school and his family, even their theatre teacher from high school, I was sitting next to him during the play actually, anyway besides the point.
Everything was great on the stage, but in real life, they're not so much.. the celebration part after the play.. even he said everyone's here, his friends from high school, his friends from primary, his friends from university were already there of course, his family, and who am I? Who am I? A girl from the internet..
I felt so much like an outsider there, like an intruder you know? And Begüm was trying to include me to all conversations by explaining everything but it's just so sad. What's my link to Begüm? A school that we both despise with passion.. They're not my people, I don't belong there. And don't get me wrong, my first impression of them is far or less real good, but who am I to them? No one.
So I don't belong there but where do I belong? With my friends? Oh please, I'm surrounded by people but I'm so alone. Zeynep, you all know, I'm so tired of trying to find a solution to her same and same and same problems, of her lies she says about me to her friends, of her making me feel awful for going to Efe's play instead of Çanakkale with her, of her trying to use me as a safety net with her parents, I'm just so tired of her. Cansu and Sibel? I haven't heard from them for over weeks. I don't have friends, ok...
and online? doesn't much cover it up. I love deeply some of the people here, and we make plans about meeting some day, but I need something real. Someone I can call and meet and laugh and cry, and I don't know, just someone real, that is in my crowd, that I don't feel like an intruder with..
I was thinking all this, during the celebration etc etc part, and when Begüm said she won't be staying at Seda's so she's going home and Efe's were going to somewhere, his mother's sister or something like that.. I just threw myself out of there, without even saying goodbye to anyone, which was wrong maybe, now that I look back... cuz even Efe called me to ask where have I gone to.. that was his happy day you know, he shouldn't have been looking after me, he should be out there celebrating. And I felt so bad in both ways.
So I just grabbed a cab, cried all the way home, and went right off to sleep.
Hope he had a great time because that play, really was something.
About the play, I just wanna say in one word that it ROCKED, I mean I saw school plays before but this was something so much more than that, Efe was awesome, so was Ömer (only two people I know), the dances and the lyrics, and I don't know, whole of it, you should just watch it.
And I met a whole bunch of Efe's friends, I knew Begüm, besides that, his friends from high school and his family, even their theatre teacher from high school, I was sitting next to him during the play actually, anyway besides the point.
Everything was great on the stage, but in real life, they're not so much.. the celebration part after the play.. even he said everyone's here, his friends from high school, his friends from primary, his friends from university were already there of course, his family, and who am I? Who am I? A girl from the internet..
I felt so much like an outsider there, like an intruder you know? And Begüm was trying to include me to all conversations by explaining everything but it's just so sad. What's my link to Begüm? A school that we both despise with passion.. They're not my people, I don't belong there. And don't get me wrong, my first impression of them is far or less real good, but who am I to them? No one.
So I don't belong there but where do I belong? With my friends? Oh please, I'm surrounded by people but I'm so alone. Zeynep, you all know, I'm so tired of trying to find a solution to her same and same and same problems, of her lies she says about me to her friends, of her making me feel awful for going to Efe's play instead of Çanakkale with her, of her trying to use me as a safety net with her parents, I'm just so tired of her. Cansu and Sibel? I haven't heard from them for over weeks. I don't have friends, ok...
and online? doesn't much cover it up. I love deeply some of the people here, and we make plans about meeting some day, but I need something real. Someone I can call and meet and laugh and cry, and I don't know, just someone real, that is in my crowd, that I don't feel like an intruder with..
I was thinking all this, during the celebration etc etc part, and when Begüm said she won't be staying at Seda's so she's going home and Efe's were going to somewhere, his mother's sister or something like that.. I just threw myself out of there, without even saying goodbye to anyone, which was wrong maybe, now that I look back... cuz even Efe called me to ask where have I gone to.. that was his happy day you know, he shouldn't have been looking after me, he should be out there celebrating. And I felt so bad in both ways.
So I just grabbed a cab, cried all the way home, and went right off to sleep.
Hope he had a great time because that play, really was something.