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Today at lunch I saw mike at aurthur ave. I was with kirsten and cherish from the office so it was a lot less painful then if I had been by myself. I was completely caught off guard, and basically all that was said was hey, and see ya later. It's just weird seeing him and being so mad that I don't even want to speak to him. I just wish I could trust him. I can't believe I wasted so much of my time liking him and loving the fact that I saw a future with him. He is a completely different boy then the one I started liking in ceramics class. i know what everyone has been saying to me about mike is on target, but when it's such a low blow and harsh dejection it's hard to swallow it down especially so quickly. This is so sad... anyone who doesntknow me or know the situation is probaly thinking this girl is a stalking freak. Guys really don't get just how much they can change a girls life for the good and the bad. I've been thinking lately and I'm starting to get a little stir crazy. I think I'm ready for a relationship, I've been alone for too long now, and I really miss being held... Wow! I'm kinda embarassed to use this entry. It seems too personal to show, but what the hell. *Later