Ramblings
It's been a while. I've been writing in a paper journal instead of online. I've been on vacation.
We spent a week in Pt. Mugu, CA enjoying the ocean, beach and a sun that isn't nearly as hot as it is here. I got a good suntan...no burning. We had a wonderful time! We took my mom with us. She really enjoyed it too. We hated to come home. It's too damn hot here! It averaged 115 degrees here for the high this week. UGH!!
I've spent a couple hours in the pool yesterday. The exercise is good, but I think I did too much. My muscles were so sore last night. Aleve and muscle relaxers and medicated rubs did nothing to get them to stop hurting! It was hard to fall asleep.
I realized yesterday that I've lived in my house almost as long without the ex as I did with him. He lived here for 8 years 4 months. I've lived here without him for 7 years 9 months. Hard to believe! In 5 short months it'll be even.
My second application to SSA disability was denied. Bastards! One of my doctors said I was responding to treatment. Bullshit! I'm as ticked off at my doctors (mainly the rheumatologist) as I am to SSA. My lawyer is going to file a request for a hearing. I've got appts set up with my PCP, rheumy and a psychologist. Hopefully, it'll all work out. I hate this!! I hate being sick and in pain and not getting people to believe it. The day to day of my life is not good. I've given up doing the fun things I like to do. It's not just work. But they don't see it.
I have applied for a work at home job. We need the money. I'm hoping that I get it, but that it doesn't have to be long term. I'm worried that I won't be able to even do what's required for it, but I'll do my best. Any money coming in would help out a ton.
I'm getting tired now as it is. So hasta la luego...