Hexed Completely and Totally Private
You couldn't just placate me for a day? You couldn't just smile and say "That's nice, Lily," and let me try and do something that felt useful for a fucking week?
My mouth is turning into Sirius'. But I really just don't care. What really pisses me off is that they had a point. They were completely logical about it. So, I left. How do I argue with that? If they won't can't see what's happening I... Ugh.
I'm being selfish, but I'm sick of not being selfish. I just wanted one thing to cling to make this a little bit easier.
I'm going out for a job tomorrow. And the next day, and the next, I just need something to do. It's nice for them to say they feel this way as well, but they have day jobs, things to do in the off hours. I sit and wait. Fuck them. Fuck that.
Christ, I just wanted one fucking thing to distract me. One useless, insignificant thing.
I'll cool down, but I really don't want to see either of them for a week or two. Now I feel ten times the shit I felt like before. I should have stayed inside. Bugger bugger bugger.
My mouth is turning into Sirius'. But I really just don't care. What really pisses me off is that they had a point. They were completely logical about it. So, I left. How do I argue with that? If they won't can't see what's happening I... Ugh.
I'm being selfish, but I'm sick of not being selfish. I just wanted one thing to cling to make this a little bit easier.
I'm going out for a job tomorrow. And the next day, and the next, I just need something to do. It's nice for them to say they feel this way as well, but they have day jobs, things to do in the off hours. I sit and wait. Fuck them. Fuck that.
Christ, I just wanted one fucking thing to distract me. One useless, insignificant thing.
I'll cool down, but I really don't want to see either of them for a week or two. Now I feel ten times the shit I felt like before. I should have stayed inside. Bugger bugger bugger.