my body is exhausted from trying so hard to 'be happy'
my body is exhausted from trying so hard to 'be happy'
I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE HAPPY, LAUGHING, OR TRYING TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE LAUGH.
I'M REALIZING ITS ALL A COVER UP....
I'M NOT AS STRONG AS I SEEM TO BE.
CANCER SCARED THE FUCK OUT OF ME.
I'M NOT AS HAPPY AS I SEEM TO BE.
I'M A FUCKEN MESS.
I TAKE RISKS AND EVERYTIME I DO I GET HURT.
I'D DO ANYTHING FOR MY FRIENDS EVEN THOUGH I DON'T THINK THEY WOULD HONESTLY DO THE SAME FOR ME.
I FEEL FORGOTTEN AND MISUNDERSTOOD.
I TAKE DRUGS TO FORGET ABOUT THE NOW...I DRINK TO FORGET ABOUT REALITY UNTIL I WAKE UP AND IT STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN.
MY FAMILY ISN'T PERFECT. I LOVE MY BROTHER WITH ALL MY HEART. I DON'T WANT TO LOOSE HIM TO DRUGS OR HIV.
I'M NOT AS STRONG AS I SEEM TO BE...
THINGS MAKE ME CRY EVEN THOUGH NOBODY SEES THAT PART OF ME