MOMMY!!!
Yay! I finally got ahold of my mom. It was really nice to talk to her~ she's having problems with her dialysis again though. This time her shunt thingy in her arm is cutting off the circulation to her hand for the entire 4 hours of treatment~ so her hand turns purple and hurts really bad~ if it keeps up, that can lead to major problems that can cause amputation. So the docs are giving her a bad time, I told her to call Dr. Johnson and demand an immediate fistulogram~ she's not really good at demanding, so I hope she gets on him. But~ I got to talk to her and that's really nice. My mom had a major heart attack last year and she was in a coma for a couple of days. It is really a cool thing to have her back for however long she's here~ I know it probably won't be that long because she still won't quit smoking. But the thing is, even though I know she probably won't be around too much longer, it's still hard to visit and call and everything. Just because for one thing, I quit smoking and she smokes constantly, and that's hard. Last time I quit I started up again the first time I visited her. Also, she's not my mom I remember from when I was little~ I still love her, don't get me wrong, but it's hard to see her in such poor health~ I know I'm selfish, but it's hard to get over those feelings. Plus sometimes she gets in these really negative moods and that's hard too~ anyway, just feeling guilty and rationalizing. Maybe we'll go to Reno this weekend and I can see her. :)