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After a lot of soul searching and one very long talk with my husband, we have decided to stop breastfeeding. We won't be doing it cold turkey or anything, but we have started weaning Evan to formula and our lives are already a lot easier. I do understand that breastfeeding is the absolute best thing for a baby, but there are a few other things to consider here. Like my and my husband's sanity. My baby is one week old already (one week, one day!!!) and breastfeeding has not gotten any easier, despite two meetings with a lactation lady and a lot of really good advice from a dear friend of mine. I have been so emotional and moody in the last week because I've been trying so hard to breastfeed and I really haven't been able to properly bond with my son, I think. I am constantly dreading that next feeding and fearing that I'm starving him.
I wanted this so badly for him, but it's time to stop. I love my baby and I want to be able to appreciate him and cuddle him and love on him. I have absolutely done all of those things with him in the last week, but I don't feel like I've given my whole self to him, and I've sat crying over him for far too many nights.
I love my baby and I know that his is what's best for him.
I cannot drive myself or my husband crazy any longer.
I wanted this so badly for him, but it's time to stop. I love my baby and I want to be able to appreciate him and cuddle him and love on him. I have absolutely done all of those things with him in the last week, but I don't feel like I've given my whole self to him, and I've sat crying over him for far too many nights.
I love my baby and I know that his is what's best for him.
I cannot drive myself or my husband crazy any longer.