Itchy, Bitchy, and Huge.
I'm offically pissed off.
And I don't exactly fully know why.
Well, I do believe that my mother is back to using drugs, and let me just say...
THIS PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF.
She keeps telling me that she wants to be a big part of the baby's life when he comes and how she's going to babysit him all the time and take care of him, blah blah blah. Then maybe she should get off the fucking drugs, eh? Just a damn idea of mine. Call me crazy.
And she thinks that I'm stupid and don't know what's going on. I can tell, Mom. I'm not blind to your drug use.
Moving on. I lost my mucus plug last night, and I'm hoping that labor will come as a result of this. My doctor called this morning to let me know that my C-section is scheduled for 7:30am on Tuesday, June 28. That's a relief, I suppose. At least now I have a date. One week from tomorrow. Wow.
I'm going to have a baby one week from tomorrow.
Wow.
I'm remaining hopeful that the baby will still turn and come on his own. He's been moving a lot in a strange way, and lots of big movements. That makes me think that maybe he has turned? Or is in the process of turning? Who knows!! I'm really ready for him to come.
Just a note on being pregnant, so that in the future when I'm looking back at this entry and wondering what it was like to be pregnant and such.
It really freaking sucks!!
I am very, very swollen.
My feet, ankles, and legs ache most all the time from how swollen they are.
I'm tired all the time, yet I only sleep about 6 hours a right.
I am never, ever comfortable.
And let's not forget, it's freaking June here! So it's hot, very hot.
In other news.
I taught myself how to crochet granny squares yesterday. I'm very, very excited about this. I bought a few different colors of yarn so that I can make myself a blanket. I plan on working on that for the next week to keep my mind off of things.
(To keep my mind off the fact that I'm really freaking scared of the c-section)
I'd like to learn how to quilt.