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well i am leaving tommorrow officailly its december 30th at like 12 am so that means i am leaving tommorrow for ottawa! i cant belive it...... i think seeing lyndsay will realli get me on the right track for my life.. ever since she left i havnt been the person i want to be.. and noe i dont reliy on her and i dont not like who i am.. and i am fairly happy with who i am but who i became wasnt sucha pretty site for awile.. i have realli straightened myself out.. i was drinking way to much and at my age its not the time nor the place.. i realized drinking isnt so much the bad thing its who your with more then anything and if your getting drunk to get waisted or if your drinking casually.. it all depends on the situation.. which is far from the point i am making.. i seriously am happy i am gettin to see her again... she was my only bestfriend who was truely like a complete sister... we told eachother everything to a certain extent and didnt press to learn more if we didnt want to talk about it.. we would argue but always make up.. we both have the same values.. and you have to meet her to understand me visa versa.. she says lots of her friends find her weird.. but once they see us together its liek a puzzel being finished.. i noe it seams weird considering we only knew eachother for a little time but she is my bestfriend.. and i never want to loose touch with her.. i would trust her and her famliy with my life.. as much as i trust my own and that doesnt happen offen that you can find someone as a friend who will be there no strings attached if u need themm.. i noe if i needed lyndsay bad enough she would get on a plane or a bus to get here and she knows i would do the same.. i am really happy i am seeing her becaue i think i need some real heart to heart chats.. and i think this will be the perfect opportunity.. well i have to go
xoxmeliss
xoxmeliss