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I don't even know anymore. I don't know how I feel, what I think. I'm so hurt, upset, angry, confused. I just want to crawl up inside myself and never come out. I want to punch a wall, or a lot of walls. I just want to scream and yell, cry and hide. I want to talk to you so bad, but I can't. And at the same time I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be noticed. I don't want to have to do anything, or see anyone. I don't want to smile, laugh, nothing. I'm sick and tired of all of this. I'm sick of caring, and missing stuff, even really dumb little stupid stuff.I hate this. Why me? I keep wanting to say what did I do wrong? But really, I can't think of a freaking thing, nothing! My heart is breaking, I'm falling apart. Uhhh...I don't know how much longer I can handle this. I just wish it made sense, even just a little bit.