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So today has been a deep thinking day for me. Here are some of my thoughts.
I believe alot of this may have a lot to do with the sudden change in weather. Which I love. God is so good.
The sky was brilliant at 6:15 this morning, the stars were out and I felt so inferior. Sometimes it feels good to be inferior. Knowing that God is bigger than it all.
Do you know that feeling you get when you are walking outside, and it's cool and the sun is setting and there are chimes ringing because of the breeze on someone's front porch. And you just want to sit there forever, because there's just something about it. Something unexplainable.
As I sat there at the piano bench just staring at the music in front of me, fingers moving gracefully across the keys, I came to the conclusion that sometimes the less I think about it the better I can play. I spent a good portion of my 45 lesson today, thinking and praying in my head. Every once and a while I would nod to my teacher and mutter words leading him to believe that I was even listening to a word he was saying, which I really wasn't. Yet somehow when it was my turn to play, it just happened. That's cool.
I know this is going to sound weird, but today I was thinking about relationships. Sometimes I miss the awkward conversations, the time where you don't really know what eachother is thinking and it's all such a mystery, and it's so fun, and there are no strings attached. I mean don't get me wrong, there are definitely negatives to that. But...I miss it.
If the words that were spoken in my head could be written down on paper just as I thought them. I could probably write a book, and it would probably be good.
Sometimes people change. Sometimes it's only for a little while. Sometimes it's forever. Sometimes it's for the better. But sometimes it's for the worse. Sometimes we don't know why. Sometimes we do. And sometimes we never will. But maybe sometimes it's us that change. Or maybe no one really changes we just grow up. Maybe it's situations that change, and through situations we change. Maybe we'll never know.
I'm not technically sad, but I guess I am. And I'm not really happy but sometimes I am. I just wish stuff was easier sometimes. But I suppose that's the beauty of life. We don't know and God does. And we don't have to know because He will make it worth it. If we trust Him.
I believe alot of this may have a lot to do with the sudden change in weather. Which I love. God is so good.
The sky was brilliant at 6:15 this morning, the stars were out and I felt so inferior. Sometimes it feels good to be inferior. Knowing that God is bigger than it all.
Do you know that feeling you get when you are walking outside, and it's cool and the sun is setting and there are chimes ringing because of the breeze on someone's front porch. And you just want to sit there forever, because there's just something about it. Something unexplainable.
As I sat there at the piano bench just staring at the music in front of me, fingers moving gracefully across the keys, I came to the conclusion that sometimes the less I think about it the better I can play. I spent a good portion of my 45 lesson today, thinking and praying in my head. Every once and a while I would nod to my teacher and mutter words leading him to believe that I was even listening to a word he was saying, which I really wasn't. Yet somehow when it was my turn to play, it just happened. That's cool.
I know this is going to sound weird, but today I was thinking about relationships. Sometimes I miss the awkward conversations, the time where you don't really know what eachother is thinking and it's all such a mystery, and it's so fun, and there are no strings attached. I mean don't get me wrong, there are definitely negatives to that. But...I miss it.
If the words that were spoken in my head could be written down on paper just as I thought them. I could probably write a book, and it would probably be good.
Sometimes people change. Sometimes it's only for a little while. Sometimes it's forever. Sometimes it's for the better. But sometimes it's for the worse. Sometimes we don't know why. Sometimes we do. And sometimes we never will. But maybe sometimes it's us that change. Or maybe no one really changes we just grow up. Maybe it's situations that change, and through situations we change. Maybe we'll never know.
I'm not technically sad, but I guess I am. And I'm not really happy but sometimes I am. I just wish stuff was easier sometimes. But I suppose that's the beauty of life. We don't know and God does. And we don't have to know because He will make it worth it. If we trust Him.