'All we can do is keep breathing....'
I can't snap out of this bad mood.... and I know why I'm in the bad mood... and I know I need to let go of this but I can't.
I don't know why I'm having such a hard time with this... clearly if someone treats me this way they're not worth my time... but I just can't let go of the fact that someone I thought was my friend seems to hate me... and I don't even know why. What could I have done that would prompt someone to go as far as deleting me off of facebook.... like I can't even see that they exist anymore. Like I go into a group that I know for a fact he's in and his name is just not there.
Ugh... I feel like I'm in high school again and I stole someone's boyfriend or something... except I'm referring to a guy... but whatever.
Seriously though, no idea what I did. It was like one day we were friends and the next day we weren't. And I don't know why. And when I finally called him on it (after weeks of being basically ignored and treated like an acquaintance when we'd see each other) he deleted me from all means of communication (blackberry messenger, facebook and msn). I'll admit that I was a little rude (I *may* have called him an asshole... or rather said he was acting like an asshole towards me) but I was just so fed up... and instead of responding he just deleted me. Who does that?
It sucks too because we run in the same 'jewish' circle in terms of events and stuff.... so it's not like I can just forget about him... so now the next time we're both at the same event it will just be awkward.... I hate awkward...
Seriously... how do I just get over this.... maybe I should mention that in the not too distant past I liked him... you know... as more than a friend... I'm pretty sure that's not helping. And we were becoming close friends... and went through something that should have brought us closer. I don't understand how I could completely misjudge someone like that.
Maybe if I could just stop caring altogether... about anything. That would solve all my problems.
I don't know why I'm having such a hard time with this... clearly if someone treats me this way they're not worth my time... but I just can't let go of the fact that someone I thought was my friend seems to hate me... and I don't even know why. What could I have done that would prompt someone to go as far as deleting me off of facebook.... like I can't even see that they exist anymore. Like I go into a group that I know for a fact he's in and his name is just not there.
Ugh... I feel like I'm in high school again and I stole someone's boyfriend or something... except I'm referring to a guy... but whatever.
Seriously though, no idea what I did. It was like one day we were friends and the next day we weren't. And I don't know why. And when I finally called him on it (after weeks of being basically ignored and treated like an acquaintance when we'd see each other) he deleted me from all means of communication (blackberry messenger, facebook and msn). I'll admit that I was a little rude (I *may* have called him an asshole... or rather said he was acting like an asshole towards me) but I was just so fed up... and instead of responding he just deleted me. Who does that?
It sucks too because we run in the same 'jewish' circle in terms of events and stuff.... so it's not like I can just forget about him... so now the next time we're both at the same event it will just be awkward.... I hate awkward...
Seriously... how do I just get over this.... maybe I should mention that in the not too distant past I liked him... you know... as more than a friend... I'm pretty sure that's not helping. And we were becoming close friends... and went through something that should have brought us closer. I don't understand how I could completely misjudge someone like that.
Maybe if I could just stop caring altogether... about anything. That would solve all my problems.