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This morning my mom woke me up at 11:22 which really pissed me off becauz this was my first time all summer sleeping in past 10 so obviously I really needed the sleep, especially cauz I didn't fall asleep since 3. I have a doctors appointment at 1:15, which really sucks. Last night I got to hang out with Bill and Lindsay because, unlike someone else, they actually care about me and aren't two-faced. Now I'm dedicating this journal entry to back-stabbing because last night I actually freakin cried myself to sleep because of it and if you know me you know how much I hate crying. It's funny that yesterday morning and the night before my friend was very upset because she confided in someone and they turned around and back-stabbed her so I tried my best to make her feel better. Then I confided in her and she fucking back-stabbed me and left me at a party without saying goodbye and I was supposed to drive her home! What the freakin hell!? I'm so sick of putting my trust in people because I always, ALWAYS end up getting hurt. This is exactly why I wanted to transfer high schools. My entire life I've always been the one in the shadows, sure I'd stand with groups of people but I was never really with them they'd usually pretty much ignor me. And do you know how hard it is to make friends when your different? To this day people who meet me see my arm, not me. I'm constantly picked on for it, yes even in high school because aren't we all so mature! Sorry I'm complaining and bitching, I really try not to bitch. Well that's all for now, I didn't mean to be depressing. Peace