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[melbug2]

This past summer was amazing. I finally started dating this guy from my work that I have liked since well I guess since I started workthing there, so over two years now. Everything was great. We spent as much time together as possible and that was ok, and suprisingly enough, it was ok by him, too. It just seemed like we were made for each other. But fall came and I had to go to school an hour away. He's in his last year of school for his masters in education and just wouldn't have had the time. Its too bad because I thought we would be able to make it through the school year. I miss him but if it is meant to be, it will happen one way or the other. For awhile I was upset but Im getting over it and I don't want to be fixated on it during the entire year and miss out on something that might come along while I'm at school. I just wish that it didn't have to be that way and that I didn't have to move on. But I can't complain since it was probably my best summer ever and I enjoyed every second I had with him. I hope we can still be friends and maybe something more than that someday. It just seems so far away. It's like I can't win with who ever I date. None of the relationships seem to pan out to be anything worth a damn. Oh well, shit happens... that's life. If nothing bad ever happened, what would we have to look back at and laugh about 10 years from now?

Lyrics for the day:

As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting inner light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

-Serenity, Godsmack

PS- m&m's can make any bad day wonderful.