Killing time in A420a
The title of this entry exactly describes what I'm doing at the moment. I have still have more than an hour before I have to meet up with Di, Ness and Ses. I'm in not much of a condition to do anything remotely constructive (it has been a shitty few days, and I guess not so good overall past few weeks or so), so I thought I might as well post an entry to LJ, something I haven't done for three weeks now. At one stage, I did strongly considered making a short trip to Highpoint, but ultimately I decided against it because I didn't have anything I really needed to do there.
Like I mentioned above, I have found life recently...umm...like the flat line and continuous beep you get, when someone's heart stops while connected to a heart rate monitor. I mean I haven't had any major problems per se, just simply a whole bunch of small ones compounding on top of each other. The problems involve the usual suspects like my computer, uni and work, among other things as well. Therefore I'm almost always tired to some degree, get aches and pains all over body (most notably my neck and shoulder region), my temperament is declining, so on and so forth. My performance levels during indoor soccer have been in freefall for two weeks now! I missed a penalty, wasted a number of good scoring opportunities, gave up possession often and was hopelessly out of form last Sunday (we play our matches on a Sunday evening). Even though our team won the match, I thought I had almost cost us the match. This week, I didn't play much better althought circumstances outside of my control, did contribute significantly to my performance (we simply had no subsititutes, therefore no rest whatsoever).
Mmmm...this entry is getting pretty long by my standards *chuckles*. Well I guess the problem that has been troubling me the most, is what I'm to discribe in brief. I have already discussed said problem with a small number of close friends, and I appreciate the advice given (even though each person said pretty much the same thing and the advice didn't help much *laughs*). To cut a long story short, I have feelings for a person, and before anyone leaves a comment, this is in no way whatsoever related to anything to do with yaoi-related material *chuckles*. The conundrum is whether or not I inform said person of how I feel, and knowing from past experience it usually doesn't end well. The obvious outcome that I would hope for, would be to find out the feelings are mutual and the chance for perhaps something more to develop. But in reality, things rarely work out the way you want them to, meaning potentially I stand to lose out quite heavily. I certainly value the status quo I have at the moment, and if what I say or do might in any sort of way jeopardise that, there isn't a chance in hell I will do anything. I simply don't know what I should do next because I keep on thinking of the 'what if' factor and time too. *sighs*...oh well I guess
I would just like to point out, I actually finished the above paragraph, while sitting at home on my computer and not in A420a. I met up with aforementioned girls for lunch in the afternoon at the 'orange place', after they finished class. Since they left ahead of me, I ended up running a couple of blocks to catch up with them. I ordered my usual no. 6, which is broken rice with pork chop and fried egg. Afterwards I went to my favourite bakery to buy an egg tart for myself and some pork floss buns for the family. The warm weather made me incredibly thirsty, so I went to Bubblecup and bought a mango ice blend with fruit jelly. Nothing of much significance happened afterwards, simply went home.
I'm not sure of what to talk about next, although I want to include the reviews of some games I have played recently, Sim City 4 and Soldier of Fortune 2: Double Helix (not too far off from finishing). Indeed, both games are very old (I think both are of 2003 vintage) but I'm a strict bargin hunter when it comes to purchasing games. I think I will post my reviews in my next LJ entry. Well I guess this is it, until next time...
Like I mentioned above, I have found life recently...umm...like the flat line and continuous beep you get, when someone's heart stops while connected to a heart rate monitor. I mean I haven't had any major problems per se, just simply a whole bunch of small ones compounding on top of each other. The problems involve the usual suspects like my computer, uni and work, among other things as well. Therefore I'm almost always tired to some degree, get aches and pains all over body (most notably my neck and shoulder region), my temperament is declining, so on and so forth. My performance levels during indoor soccer have been in freefall for two weeks now! I missed a penalty, wasted a number of good scoring opportunities, gave up possession often and was hopelessly out of form last Sunday (we play our matches on a Sunday evening). Even though our team won the match, I thought I had almost cost us the match. This week, I didn't play much better althought circumstances outside of my control, did contribute significantly to my performance (we simply had no subsititutes, therefore no rest whatsoever).
Mmmm...this entry is getting pretty long by my standards *chuckles*. Well I guess the problem that has been troubling me the most, is what I'm to discribe in brief. I have already discussed said problem with a small number of close friends, and I appreciate the advice given (even though each person said pretty much the same thing and the advice didn't help much *laughs*). To cut a long story short, I have feelings for a person, and before anyone leaves a comment, this is in no way whatsoever related to anything to do with yaoi-related material *chuckles*. The conundrum is whether or not I inform said person of how I feel, and knowing from past experience it usually doesn't end well. The obvious outcome that I would hope for, would be to find out the feelings are mutual and the chance for perhaps something more to develop. But in reality, things rarely work out the way you want them to, meaning potentially I stand to lose out quite heavily. I certainly value the status quo I have at the moment, and if what I say or do might in any sort of way jeopardise that, there isn't a chance in hell I will do anything. I simply don't know what I should do next because I keep on thinking of the 'what if' factor and time too. *sighs*...oh well I guess
I would just like to point out, I actually finished the above paragraph, while sitting at home on my computer and not in A420a. I met up with aforementioned girls for lunch in the afternoon at the 'orange place', after they finished class. Since they left ahead of me, I ended up running a couple of blocks to catch up with them. I ordered my usual no. 6, which is broken rice with pork chop and fried egg. Afterwards I went to my favourite bakery to buy an egg tart for myself and some pork floss buns for the family. The warm weather made me incredibly thirsty, so I went to Bubblecup and bought a mango ice blend with fruit jelly. Nothing of much significance happened afterwards, simply went home.
I'm not sure of what to talk about next, although I want to include the reviews of some games I have played recently, Sim City 4 and Soldier of Fortune 2: Double Helix (not too far off from finishing). Indeed, both games are very old (I think both are of 2003 vintage) but I'm a strict bargin hunter when it comes to purchasing games. I think I will post my reviews in my next LJ entry. Well I guess this is it, until next time...